Formspring - June 2011

As scheduled, here's the post answering your questions for June. There's going to a long silence here onward, except for at PFL as I have decided to publish some of the scheduled posts there that I have previously published here.

Q. Who's your favorite novelist/author?
A. To be really honest, there isn't like just one. I have favorites, but there like ten or something. No particular exists, and they keep changing time to time. Nowadays it's Alex Sanchez!

Q. Who has been your favorite American Idol winner so far?
A. I'm torn between Carrie Underwood and Kelly Clarkson, but judging from my current play list I'd have to say Carrie Underwood.

Q. Earliest gay memory?
A. Crushing on a boy named Andrew in 4th Grade. I didn't know about homosexuality or even what a crush is, but I do remember being intensely fond of him and wanting to be with him.

Q. Will you stop blogging if your boyfriend asks you not to, stating issues being uncomfortable of you sharing details which he considers special?
A. I'd agree to not publish details regarding the happenings between us, but blogging about things that involve strictly me or other people in my life will not come to a halt. If there is something that I think may make him feel uncomfortable, I'd have him read it before I publish it so that I can have his opinion on it.

Q. Have you ever considered being single by choice?
A. I have. At the beginning on the year, I did. But then I met Josh and things seemed to click. But while things are going good with Josh, I'm not entirely feeling the need to get committed to him. It's not that I want to date other guys. I feel a relationship would take time away from more crucial areas of my life that needs my attention, like my studies.

Q. I read in some post that the guy you would date should have same faith, does this mean he needs to be of the same religion?
A. Yes. I would prefer him to be of the same religion, as later on when kids come into the picture there aren't any clashes about the beliefs.

Q. At what age did you first masturbate? And at what age did you bed with a guy?
A. Sixteen and nineteen!

Q. What is your Zodiac Sign and Blood Group?
A. I will not be disclosing my Zodiac because I do not want to. But my blood group is B+!

Q. Can you put on your pants both legs at the same time?
A. Being a person with normal human flexibility and reflexes, I can't. Sorry to dissappoint you!

Q. How active is your sex life? Ever had sex at all?
A. My last moment involving intimacy happened on 12th July 2010 which I mentioned in my post here, and if you are talking about full on sex then that has never happened.

Q. Why do you not write posts on Gracie? Same goes for Amanda. I want to know about the girls in your life.
A. I'm extremely sorry for not having posted any on these beauties since quite a time. I know I have left you hanging on about my coming out to Amanda, and several interesting conversations with her. Gracie and I have made a million memories with all the drama that we have been put through. I have to tell you guys all that. I can't blog any much more than I already do. But I promise if this blog is ever going to shut down, it's not going to happen till atleast I have been over these two lovely ladies.

Q. Did you ever face any problem with a girl pressing themselves for you?
A. Once, and it didn't go well at all. She stopped talking to me when I told her that I am not interested in having any form of romance. I was kind of rude to her, but we made up much later.

Q. Will you date a guy who smokes?
A. Nopes. Never! If he has quit and has shaken off the addiction for good, I'll be fine with that. But somebody who currently indulges in the habit won't get very far with me.

Q. Now that you are putting the 'hunk back in Phunk', has your preference level or criteria for men to be your potential boyfriend elevated?
A. No. I'm guessing you meant physically speaking, and no - it hasn't changed the least. He needs to be good looking enough to turn me on, and my good looks criteria hasn't changed at all. I'm still crushing on the same regular guys I did before I started going to the gym.

Q. I don't know whether you believe in fairy tales or not, but I want to ask you whether if a fairy grants you a wish where in you could become straight from gay, would you ask for a changeover? Do provide us a reason for your choice!
A. Yes, I would. The reason would be alot of things that my family would have to face would automatically be solved. Otherwise I'm very much cool with being gay.

Q. You once mentioned that there was a cat who used to lie outside your room all the time. Isn't it around anymore? And in case I've got this wrong,  then let's flip the question a bit; what's your take on the line that gay guys and cats get along well?
A. It wasn't my room, but the room I was living in when I was visiting my uncle. It was my cousin's cat, and judging from the recent pictures I got of a part at their place she's still around. As far as cats and gay guys go, I don't think you can tame a cat. As much as I love cats, I think they're extremely mean creatures.

Q. Do you think there is any man hotter than Phil Fusco?
A. Yes, Paul Walker and Jensen Ackles. Also there is Andy Samberg.

Q. In one of your posts I got an impression that you are out to your mom about being gay?
A. Yup, I am! I think you are talking about this post. Right?

Q. What is your favorite album from 2010?
A. Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream'. I'm still in love with all the tracks that I liked back when it came out, and I really don't think she would be able to top her 2nd record.

Q. What's is the cutest thing about Josh?
A. His dimpled smile for sure.

Questions that I could answer are listed below because either they were too personal, possibly directly linked to my identity or I could not understand what was being asked.

1. Are you on the Edge of Glory?
2. What is your Zodiac Sign?
3. When will you be graduating?

Before I end, another thing I would like to discuss is the remark left on my Formspring;

Maintaining blogs up to date is sometimes such a pain. For you apparently it's thrice. I've been reading many blogs and get attached to a few of them. A few bloggers out of them have ditched me ( They have stopped blogging) I understand their limitation.

To the gentleman/lady who left this remark I'd like to say that I do not plan to stop blogging right now at least. I have got quite a lot of things to tell the world, the speed may decline as my life progresses because of job and perhaps a family. But if I ever plan to stop blogging for good, I'd leave a post saying so. I would never leave you guys hanging in the lurch. If that ever happens, there is only one possible explanation and that is the Phunk ran out of funk if you know what I mean. Don't worry. I'm around for a very long time!

Formspring - June 2011

As scheduled, here's the post answering your questions for June. There's going to a long silence here onward, except for at PFL as I have decided to publish some of the scheduled posts there that I have previously published here.

Q. Who's your favorite novelist/author?
A. To be really honest, there isn't like just one. I have favorites, but there like ten or something. No particular exists, and they keep changing time to time. Nowadays it's Alex Sanchez!

Q. Who has been your favorite American Idol winner so far?
A. I'm torn between Carrie Underwood and Kelly Clarkson, but judging from my current play list I'd have to say Carrie Underwood.

Q. Earliest gay memory?
A. Crushing on a boy named Andrew in 4th Grade. I didn't know about homosexuality or even what a crush is, but I do remember being intensely fond of him and wanting to be with him.

Q. Will you stop blogging if your boyfriend asks you not to, stating issues being uncomfortable of you sharing details which he considers special?
A. I'd agree to not publish details regarding the happenings between us, but blogging about things that involve strictly me or other people in my life will not come to a halt. If there is something that I think may make him feel uncomfortable, I'd have him read it before I publish it so that I can have his opinion on it.

Q. Have you ever considered being single by choice?
A. I have. At the beginning on the year, I did. But then I met Josh and things seemed to click. But while things are going good with Josh, I'm not entirely feeling the need to get committed to him. It's not that I want to date other guys. I feel a relationship would take time away from more crucial areas of my life that needs my attention, like my studies.

Q. I read in some post that the guy you would date should have same faith, does this mean he needs to be of the same religion?
A. Yes. I would prefer him to be of the same religion, as later on when kids come into the picture there aren't any clashes about the beliefs.

Q. At what age did you first masturbate? And at what age did you bed with a guy?
A. Sixteen and nineteen!

Q. What is your Zodiac Sign and Blood Group?
A. I will not be disclosing my Zodiac because I do not want to. But my blood group is B+!

Q. Can you put on your pants both legs at the same time?
A. Being a person with normal human flexibility and reflexes, I can't. Sorry to dissappoint you!

Q. How active is your sex life? Ever had sex at all?
A. My last moment involving intimacy happened on 12th July 2010 which I mentioned in my post here, and if you are talking about full on sex then that has never happened.

Q. Why do you not write posts on Gracie? Same goes for Amanda. I want to know about the girls in your life.
A. I'm extremely sorry for not having posted any on these beauties since quite a time. I know I have left you hanging on about my coming out to Amanda, and several interesting conversations with her. Gracie and I have made a million memories with all the drama that we have been put through. I have to tell you guys all that. I can't blog any much more than I already do. But I promise if this blog is ever going to shut down, it's not going to happen till atleast I have been over these two lovely ladies.

Q. Did you ever face any problem with a girl pressing themselves for you?
A. Once, and it didn't go well at all. She stopped talking to me when I told her that I am not interested in having any form of romance. I was kind of rude to her, but we made up much later.

Q. Will you date a guy who smokes?
A. Nopes. Never! If he has quit and has shaken off the addiction for good, I'll be fine with that. But somebody who currently indulges in the habit won't get very far with me.

Q. Now that you are putting the 'hunk back in Phunk', has your preference level or criteria for men to be your potential boyfriend elevated?
A. No. I'm guessing you meant physically speaking, and no - it hasn't changed the least. He needs to be good looking enough to turn me on, and my good looks criteria hasn't changed at all. I'm still crushing on the same regular guys I did before I started going to the gym.

Q. I don't know whether you believe in fairy tales or not, but I want to ask you whether if a fairy grants you a wish where in you could become straight from gay, would you ask for a changeover? Do provide us a reason for your choice!
A. Yes, I would. The reason would be alot of things that my family would have to face would automatically be solved. Otherwise I'm very much cool with being gay.

Q. You once mentioned that there was a cat who used to lie outside your room all the time. Isn't it around anymore? And in case I've got this wrong,  then let's flip the question a bit; what's your take on the line that gay guys and cats get along well?
A. It wasn't my room, but the room I was living in when I was visiting my uncle. It was my cousin's cat, and judging from the recent pictures I got of a part at their place she's still around. As far as cats and gay guys go, I don't think you can tame a cat. As much as I love cats, I think they're extremely mean creatures.

Q. Do you think there is any man hotter than Phil Fusco?
A. Yes, Paul Walker and Jensen Ackles. Also there is Andy Samberg.

Q. In one of your posts I got an impression that you are out to your mom about being gay?
A. Yup, I am! I think you are talking about this post. Right?

Q. What is your favorite album from 2010?
A. Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream'. I'm still in love with all the tracks that I liked back when it came out, and I really don't think she would be able to top her 2nd record.

Q. What's is the cutest thing about Josh?
A. His dimpled smile for sure.

Questions that I could answer are listed below because either they were too personal, possibly directly linked to my identity or I could not understand what was being asked.

1. Are you on the Edge of Glory?
2. What is your Zodiac Sign?
3. When will you be graduating?

Before I end, another thing I would like to discuss is the remark left on my Formspring;

Maintaining blogs up to date is sometimes such a pain. For you apparently it's thrice. I've been reading many blogs and get attached to a few of them. A few bloggers out of them have ditched me ( They have stopped blogging) I understand their limitation.

To the gentleman/lady who left this remark I'd like to say that I do not plan to stop blogging right now at least. I have got quite a lot of things to tell the world, the speed may decline as my life progresses because of job and perhaps a family. But if I ever plan to stop blogging for good, I'd leave a post saying so. I would never leave you guys hanging in the lurch. If that ever happens, there is only one possible explanation and that is the Phunk ran out of funk if you know what I mean. Don't worry. I'm around for a very long time!

Do'in It Like Rihanna

This incident is a few weeks old, but it got lost in the draft posts. Recently somebody left a request to post on a similar topic so I decided it was time to put this one up for everyone to see.

I had been speaking to a guy who contacted me Online since a few weeks. We could not meet because I have been extremely busy in my schedule. There is literally not much room to do anything else besides studying and wanking. Kidd'in!

He seemed very decent from his conversation and spoke very eloquently. I remember that when he contacted me for the very first time, he actually had typed this extremely articulated message. Most people from the dating site can't spell correctly much less craft exquisitely. I responded to the message and we hit it off on a good note.

One of the first things I check before responding or contacting any profile is if the person is 'Single' or 'Married'. His profile mentioned him to be single, so I thought it was all cool. He did not consider mentioning this fact to me till a significant time had passed. Before knowing this we had talked alot, even on relationships. He appreciated the fact that I am looking for a monogamous relation as it is something that most people never bother with. I asked his stance on the issue.

"I'm also looking for a monogamous relationship!", he told me in his follow up message.

No!, I didn't immediately start considering him as a potential boyfriend. I don't get into a relationship simply because the other happens to be single and is looking for a relationship. I prefer letting nature run it's course and only acting upon my feelings once I know that I actually like this guy. But still it felt nice to talk to somebody who shared a similar opinion. Upon that note, he asked me if we could exchange numbers. I sent him my number in response.

A few days later, he text messaged me if I would like to be in a relationship with him. He mentioned that he likes me but isn't exactly sure about it yet. He would prefer that we meet up sometime soon and see how things proceed. I had started to talk to Josh at that point so while I was up for a meeting, I was not entirely sure about being in a relationship with him. However I told him we can meet up sometime soon.

While exchanging messages he mentioned that he needs to go to some place with his parents. Later the next day, I asked him where did he go yesterday to get the conversation ball rolling.

"Dinner at my in-laws", he text messaged me back.

Upon reading his message I went into shock. "You are married?", I asked him. I was more angry that he was married and looking for guys to be in a relationship with than the fact that he lied to me.

"No! Just engaged!", read his reply.

"How come you didn't mention that?", I asked him.

"Does it make a difference?", he asked me.

"Hell yeah! I don't date married guys!", I replied. "And how you could be think of being in a relationship with a guy when you are going to be married to a girl? You are not even married and you are preparing to cheat on her!"

"It's not cheating if it's a relationship!", he replied.

I was way too angry to talk via text messaging so I called him up. "So you plan to be in a relationship with a girl and a guy at the same time?", I asked him.

"Yeah!", he replied.

"And how is that a monogamous relationship?", I asked him.

"One of each!", he replied.

Oh My God. He's one seriously effed up individual. Not only are his notions completely messed up but his English needs some tuning as well. My mind exploded from rage and I cut the call as I let my blood cool down. A few minutes later I shot him a text, "Dude, forget it! I'm not interested in being in contact with you anymore. Goodbye!"

He text messaged me "Okay" a few seconds later but a few days later he wanted to talk and kept on text messaging me. I never bothered to reply to him. I can't risk talking to him again because either I'd kill him or die from high blood pressure. Never in my entire life have I come across someone so seriously messed up. Never ever!

Anymore talk and I would have gone all Rihanna on his ass!

Another part on the same issue will be coming up soon later this week. 

Do'in It Like Rihanna

This incident is a few weeks old, but it got lost in the draft posts. Recently somebody left a request to post on a similar topic so I decided it was time to put this one up for everyone to see.

I had been speaking to a guy who contacted me Online since a few weeks. We could not meet because I have been extremely busy in my schedule. There is literally not much room to do anything else besides studying and wanking. Kidd'in!

He seemed very decent from his conversation and spoke very eloquently. I remember that when he contacted me for the very first time, he actually had typed this extremely articulated message. Most people from the dating site can't spell correctly much less craft exquisitely. I responded to the message and we hit it off on a good note.

One of the first things I check before responding or contacting any profile is if the person is 'Single' or 'Married'. His profile mentioned him to be single, so I thought it was all cool. He did not consider mentioning this fact to me till a significant time had passed. Before knowing this we had talked alot, even on relationships. He appreciated the fact that I am looking for a monogamous relation as it is something that most people never bother with. I asked his stance on the issue.

"I'm also looking for a monogamous relationship!", he told me in his follow up message.

No!, I didn't immediately start considering him as a potential boyfriend. I don't get into a relationship simply because the other happens to be single and is looking for a relationship. I prefer letting nature run it's course and only acting upon my feelings once I know that I actually like this guy. But still it felt nice to talk to somebody who shared a similar opinion. Upon that note, he asked me if we could exchange numbers. I sent him my number in response.

A few days later, he text messaged me if I would like to be in a relationship with him. He mentioned that he likes me but isn't exactly sure about it yet. He would prefer that we meet up sometime soon and see how things proceed. I had started to talk to Josh at that point so while I was up for a meeting, I was not entirely sure about being in a relationship with him. However I told him we can meet up sometime soon.

While exchanging messages he mentioned that he needs to go to some place with his parents. Later the next day, I asked him where did he go yesterday to get the conversation ball rolling.

"Dinner at my in-laws", he text messaged me back.

Upon reading his message I went into shock. "You are married?", I asked him. I was more angry that he was married and looking for guys to be in a relationship with than the fact that he lied to me.

"No! Just engaged!", read his reply.

"How come you didn't mention that?", I asked him.

"Does it make a difference?", he asked me.

"Hell yeah! I don't date married guys!", I replied. "And how you could be think of being in a relationship with a guy when you are going to be married to a girl? You are not even married and you are preparing to cheat on her!"

"It's not cheating if it's a relationship!", he replied.

I was way too angry to talk via text messaging so I called him up. "So you plan to be in a relationship with a girl and a guy at the same time?", I asked him.

"Yeah!", he replied.

"And how is that a monogamous relationship?", I asked him.

"One of each!", he replied.

Oh My God. He's one seriously effed up individual. Not only are his notions completely messed up but his English needs some tuning as well. My mind exploded from rage and I cut the call as I let my blood cool down. A few minutes later I shot him a text, "Dude, forget it! I'm not interested in being in contact with you anymore. Goodbye!"

He text messaged me "Okay" a few seconds later but a few days later he wanted to talk and kept on text messaging me. I never bothered to reply to him. I can't risk talking to him again because either I'd kill him or die from high blood pressure. Never in my entire life have I come across someone so seriously messed up. Never ever!

Anymore talk and I would have gone all Rihanna on his ass!

Another part on the same issue will be coming up soon later this week. 

Million Dollar Smile

Quite possibly one of the oddest thing about me is my smile. Not that it's crooked or my teeth are weird, but for the fact that it's infectious. When I talk to somebody over the phone for the first time, they often get the impression that I am smiling while really I am not. A guy recently told me that I have a 'smiling' voice,  which is one of the oddest but nicest compliments I have ever gotten. But combine that with my ridiculous habit of breaking down into giggles randomly, I am the perfect specimen for some bipolar lab experiment.

I remember talking to Christian a few years back for the first time ever. He constantly kept asking me what is so good that I'm constantly smiling. "Besides talking to you, nothing else really!", I told him - quite probably with a smile.

Speaking very generally I am a very happy person and quite often I am very optimistic. But perhaps my optimism is unhealthy in the sense that I tend to believe that somehow things will work out and I hope against hope. My little sister often comments on this behavior of mine saying that it is a good thing as it prevents me from getting frustrated and depressed easily. Even Gracie says that I'll make a good doctor in the sense that I tend to give people hope and comfort. Frankly speaking, Gracie's opinion has me scared because what if after giving them so much hope I am not able to cure them. More so since two of my fields of choice are Oncology and Psychiatry where remittance is a very frequent observation.

One of the negative comments that is often launched at me; and I do accept it to a certain extent, is that I am immature. I am inclined to agree with the people who make these comments. I am immature in the sense that at times I let things slide, even though I know better. But I do not think I am immature in the sense that I enjoy living in a joyous fashion where I constantly crack jokes, make quick zips and take pokes. Quite obviously there is a time and place for everything, I respect that. But just because I tend to smile more than an average human being and I have an hearty laugh, does not mean I can't be serious. I just choose to not hang on to the smallest black spots and look towards the light at the end of the tunnel.

I don't preach nor practice the mantra, "Smile, the world smiles with you. Cry, you cry alone!". It's bullsh*t! People close to you are always there for you, through tears and smiles. But let's not shout out to the world in absolutely feverish delight shooting off tangents. That will surely book a one way ticket to a padded room and a strait jacket!

Having a lax attitude is definitely a much required thing when we are often volleyed with disasters both in and out of our personal lives.

Quite possibly the biggest thing that I lean towards is the thought that tomorrow will a better day. I remember there being a notice above all the doors during 4th Grade in glitter - was it all that glitter that caused it to be burned into my mind for life? :p

But I really do remember scoring terribly in a Maths or Social Studies test, I looked up to that sign and somehow it made me feel better. Sure enough the next day, we got our Science test and I scored pretty well. No matter how awful today went, I know for a matter of fact that tomorrow has all the possibility to be awesome and I should not pull myself down.

Another thing that I picked up some years is to slow down. I really needed that! I remember being so relaxed a few days and then when the deadline would approach I would rush head first into work to just get done with it and try to do it to the best possible I could. Somehow in some way I would always fall short and I would absolutely regret not doing it right from the start. One step at a time, I firmly stand by it. It's no wonder one of my favorite songs by Jordin Sparks goes by the same name.



The second thing is still something I need to work on as I tend to still rush things up at times, especially in the relationship department. But work is in progress and let's hope it that I manage to accomplish it. Either ways these keep my smile up like a 100 Watts bulb and if it helps anybody out there - that would be the cherry on top of the sundae. That would be even better if the sundae comes served on the dude below! ;)

Million Dollar Smile

Quite possibly one of the oddest thing about me is my smile. Not that it's crooked or my teeth are weird, but for the fact that it's infectious. When I talk to somebody over the phone for the first time, they often get the impression that I am smiling while really I am not. A guy recently told me that I have a 'smiling' voice,  which is one of the oddest but nicest compliments I have ever gotten. But combine that with my ridiculous habit of breaking down into giggles randomly, I am the perfect specimen for some bipolar lab experiment.

I remember talking to Christian a few years back for the first time ever. He constantly kept asking me what is so good that I'm constantly smiling. "Besides talking to you, nothing else really!", I told him - quite probably with a smile.

Speaking very generally I am a very happy person and quite often I am very optimistic. But perhaps my optimism is unhealthy in the sense that I tend to believe that somehow things will work out and I hope against hope. My little sister often comments on this behavior of mine saying that it is a good thing as it prevents me from getting frustrated and depressed easily. Even Gracie says that I'll make a good doctor in the sense that I tend to give people hope and comfort. Frankly speaking, Gracie's opinion has me scared because what if after giving them so much hope I am not able to cure them. More so since two of my fields of choice are Oncology and Psychiatry where remittance is a very frequent observation.

One of the negative comments that is often launched at me; and I do accept it to a certain extent, is that I am immature. I am inclined to agree with the people who make these comments. I am immature in the sense that at times I let things slide, even though I know better. But I do not think I am immature in the sense that I enjoy living in a joyous fashion where I constantly crack jokes, make quick zips and take pokes. Quite obviously there is a time and place for everything, I respect that. But just because I tend to smile more than an average human being and I have an hearty laugh, does not mean I can't be serious. I just choose to not hang on to the smallest black spots and look towards the light at the end of the tunnel.

I don't preach nor practice the mantra, "Smile, the world smiles with you. Cry, you cry alone!". It's bullsh*t! People close to you are always there for you, through tears and smiles. But let's not shout out to the world in absolutely feverish delight shooting off tangents. That will surely book a one way ticket to a padded room and a strait jacket!

Having a lax attitude is definitely a much required thing when we are often volleyed with disasters both in and out of our personal lives.

Quite possibly the biggest thing that I lean towards is the thought that tomorrow will a better day. I remember there being a notice above all the doors during 4th Grade in glitter - was it all that glitter that caused it to be burned into my mind for life? :p

But I really do remember scoring terribly in a Maths or Social Studies test, I looked up to that sign and somehow it made me feel better. Sure enough the next day, we got our Science test and I scored pretty well. No matter how awful today went, I know for a matter of fact that tomorrow has all the possibility to be awesome and I should not pull myself down.

Another thing that I picked up some years is to slow down. I really needed that! I remember being so relaxed a few days and then when the deadline would approach I would rush head first into work to just get done with it and try to do it to the best possible I could. Somehow in some way I would always fall short and I would absolutely regret not doing it right from the start. One step at a time, I firmly stand by it. It's no wonder one of my favorite songs by Jordin Sparks goes by the same name.



The second thing is still something I need to work on as I tend to still rush things up at times, especially in the relationship department. But work is in progress and let's hope it that I manage to accomplish it. Either ways these keep my smile up like a 100 Watts bulb and if it helps anybody out there - that would be the cherry on top of the sundae. That would be even better if the sundae comes served on the dude below! ;)

Lesbian Love Rocks

I was made for you!

I wish I had such a cool lesbian couple for friends *sigh*

Lesbian Love Rocks

I was made for you!

I wish I had such a cool lesbian couple for friends *sigh*

Hummay Tum Say Pyaar Hai

On March 30th, Pakistan faced India in the Punjab Cricket Association Stadium in Mohali, India. Without any doubt, this was probably the most anticipated match of the 2011 ICC World Cup. Everytime the World Cup fever comes around, one of the questions that is one just about everybody's tongues no matter even if they don't belong to these two nations is if Pakistan and India will face off in the battlefield?.

The moment Pakistan cleared the Quarterfinals against West Indies on March 23rd, most of the people I know wanted India to win against Australia so that these two teams can finally have another go at each other. Also nobody wanted Australia to take home the World Cup for the fourth time in a row. And once India defeated Australia, the entire nation burst into a patriotic haze. Everywhere you look everybody was sporting the Pakistani team t-shirt, even on the days that Pakistan was not playing people were displaying their love for the home team by wearing green. Personally speaking, I have never even seen our nation so geared up on August 14th, which is our Independence Day. Everybody had their green on. It was indeed a sight to behold!

Yesterday all over Pakistan either it was declared a holiday or it was a half day so that people can watch the game from the comfort of their homes or wherever they choose to do so from. Auditoriums were booked where the match was being aired on the giant screen. There was a small crowd gathered just about everywhere there was a TV in viewing range. No matter what channel you switched to there would be some TV program centered around the match citing historical matches when the two Cricket giants battled. I was at a friend's place where almost all of my friends from university had gathered for the match. Even the girls had made an appearance. Adrenaline rushed our bodies, sugar levels soared as we munched on dorritos and pizzas, alot of chest bumping was going on and violent shaking when our team pulled of something brilliant and giant cries of desperation, curses and cusses were hurled like they were nothing. There were two points in the match when the great Sachin Tendulkar was seemingly eliminated but on closer inspection turned out not to be so. One guy yelled "M*th*rf*ck*r!" in a series of go without stopping not even realizing that his family was sitting in the next room. Yeah, that's how charged everybody was!

Gay guys are generally not that much into sports, but all of my gay friends were watching the match. My profile on the gay dating website got absolutely no hits during the entire time the match was going on. Every single status on Facebook was wishing our team the best. If you still don't get how we feel about Cricket, watch the video below;



Yeah! That's the extent to which Cricket has a hold on our nation. And I wouldn't change it any other way!

Unfortunately Pakistan lost the match. I'll admit that I did not want Pakistan to loose. I'll admit that I wanted Pakistan to face Sri Lanka in the final on April 2nd. I'll admit that I would not have minded at all if Pakistan would have won yesterday but lost on Saturday. I'll admit that I was disheartened and quite depressed. I've bumped the Pakistani team members off my crush list for good - especially a particular player. But at the end of the day, I'm Pakistani and I can not desert my team.

It's annoying to see the entire nation claiming bullshit like the match was fixed or Indian team was being favored as if the Indian team lost yesterday, people will not turn up to watch the final in Mumbai. I don't think these people would have been saying such stuff if Pakistani team had won yesterday. Then it would have been all 'We kicked their ass! Our players are like lions! Nobody can beat Pakistan!" and similar stuff. This is poor sportsman ship!

I'll probably be bashed for saying this but the Indian team was definitely stronger than ours. Our team suffered huge set backs when three regular players were barred from playing due to match fixing allegation and another player was injured. Pakistan suffered another blow when it was not allowed to be a host for any of the matches in the current World Cup due to our terrorism crisis. Whenever the World Cup is hosted in Asia, Pakistan is on the list of hosts. This was the very first time that it wasn't. It was indeed a huge disappointment for the entire nation as watching a match in a stadium is nothing short of amazing. Since I probably won't be in Pakistan for whenever next ICC World Cup is hosted in Asia, I wanted to watch one match in the stadium in my city.

But despite all the curve balls that were thrown at us, we managed to reach till the Semi Finals. And even though we lost, we really did play our hearts out. We didn't loose by a wide margin as if our players didn't invest themselves. We lost by 29 runs. I'll admit there were a couple of mistakes but in any game, a large part is based on luck. It just wasn't our day. The match was very close and I think everybody will agree with me on this point. I know we lost, but then somebody had to loose. But even then I feel we lost fairly. We tried, but the other team was better!

It's time that we stop the frigg'in excuses and allegations, and support our team back. No matter whether they win or loose, they're Pakistani. Just like you! Just like me! 

I swear never more than today have I wanted to be a Pakistani and give these guys love. Well played, guys!

Hummay Tum Say Pyaar Hai

On March 30th, Pakistan faced India in the Punjab Cricket Association Stadium in Mohali, India. Without any doubt, this was probably the most anticipated match of the 2011 ICC World Cup. Everytime the World Cup fever comes around, one of the questions that is one just about everybody's tongues no matter even if they don't belong to these two nations is if Pakistan and India will face off in the battlefield?.

The moment Pakistan cleared the Quarterfinals against West Indies on March 23rd, most of the people I know wanted India to win against Australia so that these two teams can finally have another go at each other. Also nobody wanted Australia to take home the World Cup for the fourth time in a row. And once India defeated Australia, the entire nation burst into a patriotic haze. Everywhere you look everybody was sporting the Pakistani team t-shirt, even on the days that Pakistan was not playing people were displaying their love for the home team by wearing green. Personally speaking, I have never even seen our nation so geared up on August 14th, which is our Independence Day. Everybody had their green on. It was indeed a sight to behold!

Yesterday all over Pakistan either it was declared a holiday or it was a half day so that people can watch the game from the comfort of their homes or wherever they choose to do so from. Auditoriums were booked where the match was being aired on the giant screen. There was a small crowd gathered just about everywhere there was a TV in viewing range. No matter what channel you switched to there would be some TV program centered around the match citing historical matches when the two Cricket giants battled. I was at a friend's place where almost all of my friends from university had gathered for the match. Even the girls had made an appearance. Adrenaline rushed our bodies, sugar levels soared as we munched on dorritos and pizzas, alot of chest bumping was going on and violent shaking when our team pulled of something brilliant and giant cries of desperation, curses and cusses were hurled like they were nothing. There were two points in the match when the great Sachin Tendulkar was seemingly eliminated but on closer inspection turned out not to be so. One guy yelled "M*th*rf*ck*r!" in a series of go without stopping not even realizing that his family was sitting in the next room. Yeah, that's how charged everybody was!

Gay guys are generally not that much into sports, but all of my gay friends were watching the match. My profile on the gay dating website got absolutely no hits during the entire time the match was going on. Every single status on Facebook was wishing our team the best. If you still don't get how we feel about Cricket, watch the video below;



Yeah! That's the extent to which Cricket has a hold on our nation. And I wouldn't change it any other way!

Unfortunately Pakistan lost the match. I'll admit that I did not want Pakistan to loose. I'll admit that I wanted Pakistan to face Sri Lanka in the final on April 2nd. I'll admit that I would not have minded at all if Pakistan would have won yesterday but lost on Saturday. I'll admit that I was disheartened and quite depressed. I've bumped the Pakistani team members off my crush list for good - especially a particular player. But at the end of the day, I'm Pakistani and I can not desert my team.

It's annoying to see the entire nation claiming bullshit like the match was fixed or Indian team was being favored as if the Indian team lost yesterday, people will not turn up to watch the final in Mumbai. I don't think these people would have been saying such stuff if Pakistani team had won yesterday. Then it would have been all 'We kicked their ass! Our players are like lions! Nobody can beat Pakistan!" and similar stuff. This is poor sportsman ship!

I'll probably be bashed for saying this but the Indian team was definitely stronger than ours. Our team suffered huge set backs when three regular players were barred from playing due to match fixing allegation and another player was injured. Pakistan suffered another blow when it was not allowed to be a host for any of the matches in the current World Cup due to our terrorism crisis. Whenever the World Cup is hosted in Asia, Pakistan is on the list of hosts. This was the very first time that it wasn't. It was indeed a huge disappointment for the entire nation as watching a match in a stadium is nothing short of amazing. Since I probably won't be in Pakistan for whenever next ICC World Cup is hosted in Asia, I wanted to watch one match in the stadium in my city.

But despite all the curve balls that were thrown at us, we managed to reach till the Semi Finals. And even though we lost, we really did play our hearts out. We didn't loose by a wide margin as if our players didn't invest themselves. We lost by 29 runs. I'll admit there were a couple of mistakes but in any game, a large part is based on luck. It just wasn't our day. The match was very close and I think everybody will agree with me on this point. I know we lost, but then somebody had to loose. But even then I feel we lost fairly. We tried, but the other team was better!

It's time that we stop the frigg'in excuses and allegations, and support our team back. No matter whether they win or loose, they're Pakistani. Just like you! Just like me! 

I swear never more than today have I wanted to be a Pakistani and give these guys love. Well played, guys!

Forget These Not

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

And everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to go it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

- "Gotta Be Somebody" by Nickelback

Being gay, I prefer the cover from Shayne Ward much more!

Doesn't matter where a person's sexual orientation may lie, everybody wants someone to love. If you're straight, the task of finding 'The One' is a gazillion times easier as you always have your family and friends to help you out in your search and inevitably many, just like you - are in search of the same.

However if you happen to be gay, then the rules of this game drastically change. Infact there are really no fixed rules. Every player has his own set of rules and they keep changing their rules to their wish. It's very much a trial and error sort of thing. Some people just pretend to play the game and unfortunately some poor soul ends up getting played really bad. It's not by any means easy in finding 'The One' if you're gay. Rarely do you have the support of your loved ones, generally it's just you watching out for yourself. Our goals are similar - finding somebody to love. And that's what we have to keep in mind.

Ryan plans to lead a straight life. He has sex every now and then with some random guy he finds off the Internet but what many of you may not know is the fact that Ryan has been through a two year relationship which ended in 2008. The guy was moving away and both of them didn't want a LDR, so they split and have remained friends ever since. However those two years were enough for Ryan to get a taste of a gay relationship and firmly decide that they aren't his cup of tea. Fortunately it also gave him enough sense to say something truly sensible every once in a while.

After my break up with Nathan, Ryan told me two things that I needed to keep in mind if I ever decided to get back into the game. Although I didn't really pay attention to his advice as I was very much soaked in depression and despair, but now I realize that his suggestion really could help out just about every gay guy looking for a relationship.

"The guy should want to be in a relationship!", Ryan told me as we sat in his car. "He needs to be looking for a guy, just as you are looking for one and not consider it because you suggested so!" Rarely does mutual attraction happen. You or the other guy will make the first move and then the other person will consider it. But you both are looking for someone to be with and it automatically leads to better chances of success. You can not complicate things with a friend by suggesting that you two should try for something more. You definitely can not suggest somebody who rings you up for a booty call for a relationship. Quite often you end up loosing him for good. Availability is the first thing one needs to keep in mind!

The other thing that Ryan emphasized on was that both guys should be on the same level of their coming out journeys. When they are similar or pretty close to what the other person has, there aren't expectations to be fulfilled. They both understand what they are capable of doing and don't make any such demands which maybe perceived as unreasonable.

Personally I would add a third point to this list and that would be to be acceptable of imperfections. We're all humans! We're all flawed! As another friend of mine once said, "We waste our time searching for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love!"

Enough said!  

Forget These Not

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there

And everyone wants to feel like someone cares

Someone to love with my life in their hands

There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to go it on their own

And everyone wants to know they're not alone

There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere

There's gotta be somebody for me out there

- "Gotta Be Somebody" by Nickelback

Being gay, I prefer the cover from Shayne Ward much more!

Doesn't matter where a person's sexual orientation may lie, everybody wants someone to love. If you're straight, the task of finding 'The One' is a gazillion times easier as you always have your family and friends to help you out in your search and inevitably many, just like you - are in search of the same.

However if you happen to be gay, then the rules of this game drastically change. Infact there are really no fixed rules. Every player has his own set of rules and they keep changing their rules to their wish. It's very much a trial and error sort of thing. Some people just pretend to play the game and unfortunately some poor soul ends up getting played really bad. It's not by any means easy in finding 'The One' if you're gay. Rarely do you have the support of your loved ones, generally it's just you watching out for yourself. Our goals are similar - finding somebody to love. And that's what we have to keep in mind.

Ryan plans to lead a straight life. He has sex every now and then with some random guy he finds off the Internet but what many of you may not know is the fact that Ryan has been through a two year relationship which ended in 2008. The guy was moving away and both of them didn't want a LDR, so they split and have remained friends ever since. However those two years were enough for Ryan to get a taste of a gay relationship and firmly decide that they aren't his cup of tea. Fortunately it also gave him enough sense to say something truly sensible every once in a while.

After my break up with Nathan, Ryan told me two things that I needed to keep in mind if I ever decided to get back into the game. Although I didn't really pay attention to his advice as I was very much soaked in depression and despair, but now I realize that his suggestion really could help out just about every gay guy looking for a relationship.

"The guy should want to be in a relationship!", Ryan told me as we sat in his car. "He needs to be looking for a guy, just as you are looking for one and not consider it because you suggested so!" Rarely does mutual attraction happen. You or the other guy will make the first move and then the other person will consider it. But you both are looking for someone to be with and it automatically leads to better chances of success. You can not complicate things with a friend by suggesting that you two should try for something more. You definitely can not suggest somebody who rings you up for a booty call for a relationship. Quite often you end up loosing him for good. Availability is the first thing one needs to keep in mind!

The other thing that Ryan emphasized on was that both guys should be on the same level of their coming out journeys. When they are similar or pretty close to what the other person has, there aren't expectations to be fulfilled. They both understand what they are capable of doing and don't make any such demands which maybe perceived as unreasonable.

Personally I would add a third point to this list and that would be to be acceptable of imperfections. We're all humans! We're all flawed! As another friend of mine once said, "We waste our time searching for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love!"

Enough said!  

Coming Out To Alex - Pt. 2

Just as soon as those words left my mouth I started dreading them. I really did want Alex to know but not like this. Never did I plan on coming out to him in the middle of our school ground. Alex seemed to go completely blank for a second. I started apologizing immediately.

"Stop!" Alex mumbled. "How can you be gay?"

"I really don't know. Even I wonder at times about it, but I really have no idea as to why am I gay!", I told him in an extremely apologetic tone.

"Are you sure?", he asked.

"Quite definitely!"

There was complete silence for a while. It's like somebody had sucked the air out of the atmosphere and all that was left was this feeling of emptiness. Alex just stood there, he was casting a huge shadow. He was about 6 ft. tall, that was one of the thing I liked about him. His height!

I kept looking at the ground. I could not look at Alex. After a very long time, I was feeling ashamed for my sexuality. It wasn't that I had gotten used to it. It was that I had started learning to live with it. However right now, all the effort that I put into being patient and understanding towards myself was replaced with anguish and shame. I was pretty sure that this would change things forever between us. Maybe coming out to Alex was a wrong move on my part after all, I thought.

"You can't be gay! Gays are so feminine! You have seen those guys dressed up as girls on the streets, right? Chakas! Hijra! They're gay! You're not gay!" Alex rambled on.

"God! You're embarrassing me! A guy can be very much gay but still be a man! Not every gay wants to dress up like a woman, you know!", I tried explaining.

"Then how can you explain your attraction?"

"I can't!"

"Then you're not gay! You're.....confused!" Alex explained.

"Dude, I'm not confused! Seriously you need to stop insulting me. Somethings I just know!" I explained. "This is one of them! I just know! I can't explain how, but I just know!"

"Have you ever done it with a guy?", he asked.

"Not yet!", I told him.

"What!? You actually plan on doing it with a guy?", he yelled in shock.

"I didn't say that. I said I haven't done anything yet!", I repeated my words slowly and carefully. "There is a difference between the two!"

"Fuck! Get a girl, Phunk!" Alex pleaded. I don't exactly remember how long we fought, but I do remember that it kept getting worse with every passing second. Somewhere along the lines Alex warned how I am paving my own road to Hell.

"We are not discussing this!", I shot back. He clearly did not understand any of my difficulties. "I'm going home! If she clears the script, do it with a girl! I'm pretty that God won't scorn over it!" Originally Alex and I were planning on hosting the ceremony through the 'Why We Fail?' segment. Alex did not follow me to the cafeteria where we had kept our bags. I exited our school short after and headed straight for home.

As soon as I got home, I went to my room. Mom felt that something had gone terribly wrong, but I lied to her about something upsetting regarding the event we were organizing and that I was too tired to eat. I lay on my bed and don't quite remember when I went to sleep. I got up around 9PM feeling a little better. I knew in the back of my head what had happened earlier in the day but somewhere a part of me felt that it was some distant nightmare. I must have slept for about six to seven hours. I took a bath and had dinner. I decided to finally get some studying done as I was scheduled to appear in my A Levels in two months. Eeek!

After about two hours of solid studying; Yeah, even I was surprised I managed to get that much done given the earlier happenings of the day. Looking back I realized Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway pulled me through. I had just gotten started on my Kelly Clarkson trip after getting addicted to American Idol the previous year when Carrie Underwood won.



There was a text message from Alex on my cell phone. "Kaisay ho? (How are you?) "

"I'm fine! You?", I responded.

"I'm good! The script's cleared! Are you sure you do not want to do it?", he asked.

I wondered for a moment. I really wanted to do it. There were so many brilliant teachers I had which I wanted to personally pay a tribute, but teaming with Alex would be very awkward. "No! Thanks for asking though!"

There was a long wait before the next text message came. "I'll make sure to mention that it was your idea. See you tomorrow!"

"Tomorrow? Why?" I asked him quite surprised.

After another long wait. "Nothing. I just thought you would be coming!"

"I'm not! I need to study!"

There was no exchange of messages after that. I got back to my books. A part of me was saying that Alex still would like to be friends, however I did not want to get my hopes up. My own sexuality was something I had not fully come to peace with, how can I expect someone else to understand?.

The last part would be up on Saturday for sure. Once again, i felt it all was too much for you guys to handle.

Also I don't quite know why but I'm on a really huge Kelly Clarkson trip since the past two days. The two songs below are currently sitting on top my iTunes plays.





I love me some Kelly!

Coming Out To Alex - Pt. 2

Just as soon as those words left my mouth I started dreading them. I really did want Alex to know but not like this. Never did I plan on coming out to him in the middle of our school ground. Alex seemed to go completely blank for a second. I started apologizing immediately.

"Stop!" Alex mumbled. "How can you be gay?"

"I really don't know. Even I wonder at times about it, but I really have no idea as to why am I gay!", I told him in an extremely apologetic tone.

"Are you sure?", he asked.

"Quite definitely!"

There was complete silence for a while. It's like somebody had sucked the air out of the atmosphere and all that was left was this feeling of emptiness. Alex just stood there, he was casting a huge shadow. He was about 6 ft. tall, that was one of the thing I liked about him. His height!

I kept looking at the ground. I could not look at Alex. After a very long time, I was feeling ashamed for my sexuality. It wasn't that I had gotten used to it. It was that I had started learning to live with it. However right now, all the effort that I put into being patient and understanding towards myself was replaced with anguish and shame. I was pretty sure that this would change things forever between us. Maybe coming out to Alex was a wrong move on my part after all, I thought.

"You can't be gay! Gays are so feminine! You have seen those guys dressed up as girls on the streets, right? Chakas! Hijra! They're gay! You're not gay!" Alex rambled on.

"God! You're embarrassing me! A guy can be very much gay but still be a man! Not every gay wants to dress up like a woman, you know!", I tried explaining.

"Then how can you explain your attraction?"

"I can't!"

"Then you're not gay! You're.....confused!" Alex explained.

"Dude, I'm not confused! Seriously you need to stop insulting me. Somethings I just know!" I explained. "This is one of them! I just know! I can't explain how, but I just know!"

"Have you ever done it with a guy?", he asked.

"Not yet!", I told him.

"What!? You actually plan on doing it with a guy?", he yelled in shock.

"I didn't say that. I said I haven't done anything yet!", I repeated my words slowly and carefully. "There is a difference between the two!"

"Fuck! Get a girl, Phunk!" Alex pleaded. I don't exactly remember how long we fought, but I do remember that it kept getting worse with every passing second. Somewhere along the lines Alex warned how I am paving my own road to Hell.

"We are not discussing this!", I shot back. He clearly did not understand any of my difficulties. "I'm going home! If she clears the script, do it with a girl! I'm pretty that God won't scorn over it!" Originally Alex and I were planning on hosting the ceremony through the 'Why We Fail?' segment. Alex did not follow me to the cafeteria where we had kept our bags. I exited our school short after and headed straight for home.

As soon as I got home, I went to my room. Mom felt that something had gone terribly wrong, but I lied to her about something upsetting regarding the event we were organizing and that I was too tired to eat. I lay on my bed and don't quite remember when I went to sleep. I got up around 9PM feeling a little better. I knew in the back of my head what had happened earlier in the day but somewhere a part of me felt that it was some distant nightmare. I must have slept for about six to seven hours. I took a bath and had dinner. I decided to finally get some studying done as I was scheduled to appear in my A Levels in two months. Eeek!

After about two hours of solid studying; Yeah, even I was surprised I managed to get that much done given the earlier happenings of the day. Looking back I realized Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway pulled me through. I had just gotten started on my Kelly Clarkson trip after getting addicted to American Idol the previous year when Carrie Underwood won.



There was a text message from Alex on my cell phone. "Kaisay ho? (How are you?) "

"I'm fine! You?", I responded.

"I'm good! The script's cleared! Are you sure you do not want to do it?", he asked.

I wondered for a moment. I really wanted to do it. There were so many brilliant teachers I had which I wanted to personally pay a tribute, but teaming with Alex would be very awkward. "No! Thanks for asking though!"

There was a long wait before the next text message came. "I'll make sure to mention that it was your idea. See you tomorrow!"

"Tomorrow? Why?" I asked him quite surprised.

After another long wait. "Nothing. I just thought you would be coming!"

"I'm not! I need to study!"

There was no exchange of messages after that. I got back to my books. A part of me was saying that Alex still would like to be friends, however I did not want to get my hopes up. My own sexuality was something I had not fully come to peace with, how can I expect someone else to understand?.

The last part would be up on Saturday for sure. Once again, i felt it all was too much for you guys to handle.

Also I don't quite know why but I'm on a really huge Kelly Clarkson trip since the past two days. The two songs below are currently sitting on top my iTunes plays.





I love me some Kelly!

My Missing Puzzle Piece

I finally found you

My missing puzzle piece

I'm complete

- Katy Perry @ Teenage Dream

It comes to no surprise that Katy Perry's Teenage Dream was a huge source of inspiration for this creation of mine. When it comes to giving a gift, especially for someone special, I want the gift to be special. I can not just buy something off a shelf and have it wrapped. I need to somehow make it my own. If I can't come up with anything original, I go with chocolates. They're the most unoriginal thing you can find that you would not feet guilty of giving. Besides everybody loves chocolates!

I conceived this idea very suddenly and I wanted to give it at that very second. Nathan was still in Pakistan at that point, but I knew that Nathan would think it was way too soon. Plus Nathan freaked out very easily when it came to gifts. Once I mentioned that I got something for him and he assumed I got us rings. And you people say I have a wild imagination!

So I kept it to myself at least till the next year. Nobody knew about it, except for Christian. He loved the idea but he thought it was way too early as well. I rely on him alot for advice so without any second thoughts I shelved the idea for the next summer. The next season of summer is coming up in a few months, however I'm no longer with Nathan. But that's okay. Everything happens for a reason!

So without any further stalling, let me reveal to you guys my idea of Nathan's Valentine Day present. Had we still been together, it would have been 11 months and 2 days exactly since we started and I think by then I totally deserved to do something like this.

I like the geeky kind of vibe the shirt gives as I am abit of geek.

Originally it was a two part shirt, with me having the exact same design except for the red piece. However one would do enough. I know this awesome shop that prints just about anything you want on t-shirts, mugs, plates, laptops, iPhones as well. But all that I couldn't give to Nathan - yet, so I was settling for this shirt.

And that my beloved readers was my idea for my Valentine gift. I'm pretty sure I'm not the first one to have come up with it, but if anybody of you likes them they are fully allowed to go ahead with it for their lover. Just make sure to snap a picture and send it to me, I would LOVE to see how this looks in real.

P.S. A million thanks to Ms. Katy Perry for giving me the inspiration for this awesome gift! You rock! 

My Missing Puzzle Piece

I finally found you

My missing puzzle piece

I'm complete

- Katy Perry @ Teenage Dream

It comes to no surprise that Katy Perry's Teenage Dream was a huge source of inspiration for this creation of mine. When it comes to giving a gift, especially for someone special, I want the gift to be special. I can not just buy something off a shelf and have it wrapped. I need to somehow make it my own. If I can't come up with anything original, I go with chocolates. They're the most unoriginal thing you can find that you would not feet guilty of giving. Besides everybody loves chocolates!

I conceived this idea very suddenly and I wanted to give it at that very second. Nathan was still in Pakistan at that point, but I knew that Nathan would think it was way too soon. Plus Nathan freaked out very easily when it came to gifts. Once I mentioned that I got something for him and he assumed I got us rings. And you people say I have a wild imagination!

So I kept it to myself at least till the next year. Nobody knew about it, except for Christian. He loved the idea but he thought it was way too early as well. I rely on him alot for advice so without any second thoughts I shelved the idea for the next summer. The next season of summer is coming up in a few months, however I'm no longer with Nathan. But that's okay. Everything happens for a reason!

So without any further stalling, let me reveal to you guys my idea of Nathan's Valentine Day present. Had we still been together, it would have been 11 months and 2 days exactly since we started and I think by then I totally deserved to do something like this.

I like the geeky kind of vibe the shirt gives as I am abit of geek.

Originally it was a two part shirt, with me having the exact same design except for the red piece. However one would do enough. I know this awesome shop that prints just about anything you want on t-shirts, mugs, plates, laptops, iPhones as well. But all that I couldn't give to Nathan - yet, so I was settling for this shirt.

And that my beloved readers was my idea for my Valentine gift. I'm pretty sure I'm not the first one to have come up with it, but if anybody of you likes them they are fully allowed to go ahead with it for their lover. Just make sure to snap a picture and send it to me, I would LOVE to see how this looks in real.

P.S. A million thanks to Ms. Katy Perry for giving me the inspiration for this awesome gift! You rock!