Not Guilty

A little while after I posted I Should Have Kissed You, I got the following three submissions in my Formspring.

1. Heartless Much?
2. How can you make a kiss so complicated?
3. You should have kissed him. Why didn't you?

I agree it was just a kiss. But it was just a kiss for me. For Josh it was clearly something alot more than just a kiss. I did want to kiss him. But if I had and felt nothing out of it and then broken up, Josh may have felt used. Or there was the a worse possibility of that he may have felt lead on to believe something that doesn't exist.

Also given that we were going to his house and I was quite obviously turned on by him, it would not have been just a kiss. There would have been some definite stripping and quite possibly some groping as well. Two young hot blooded guys who are attracted to each other present under the same roof all by themselves, things are not only bound but destined to happen. Like they say, sparks fly!

When it comes to dating business in the unfortunate case that it doesn't work out, it's quite understood that one side would eventually get hurt. It's a cruel reality but one has to accept it. Sometimes you are rejected. Sometimes you reject. Either case I didn't reject him. I just wasn't ready to kiss him yet. If he would have waited maybe something would have happened. But he's the one who stopped talking and cut me off. Not that I'm saying he's the at fault here. I know I did some very stupid things here, but I stopped myself in time from causing some serious damage.

On a brighter note, I did text message him 'Eid Mubarak' late night last Thursday and for once got a reply from him - with a smiley face. I replied to his text message with an apology to which he didn't reply. Not mad at him, even I would have not known what to reply if I was in his shoes. I can most honestly say that right now I do not feel anything for him except maybe a sense of concern. I wish him the best and that's all.

It's like the six merry murderesses of the Crookem Country Jail said - it was a murder but not a crime.

Not Guilty

A little while after I posted I Should Have Kissed You, I got the following three submissions in my Formspring.

1. Heartless Much?
2. How can you make a kiss so complicated?
3. You should have kissed him. Why didn't you?

I agree it was just a kiss. But it was just a kiss for me. For Josh it was clearly something alot more than just a kiss. I did want to kiss him. But if I had and felt nothing out of it and then broken up, Josh may have felt used. Or there was the a worse possibility of that he may have felt lead on to believe something that doesn't exist.

Also given that we were going to his house and I was quite obviously turned on by him, it would not have been just a kiss. There would have been some definite stripping and quite possibly some groping as well. Two young hot blooded guys who are attracted to each other present under the same roof all by themselves, things are not only bound but destined to happen. Like they say, sparks fly!

When it comes to dating business in the unfortunate case that it doesn't work out, it's quite understood that one side would eventually get hurt. It's a cruel reality but one has to accept it. Sometimes you are rejected. Sometimes you reject. Either case I didn't reject him. I just wasn't ready to kiss him yet. If he would have waited maybe something would have happened. But he's the one who stopped talking and cut me off. Not that I'm saying he's the at fault here. I know I did some very stupid things here, but I stopped myself in time from causing some serious damage.

On a brighter note, I did text message him 'Eid Mubarak' late night last Thursday and for once got a reply from him - with a smiley face. I replied to his text message with an apology to which he didn't reply. Not mad at him, even I would have not known what to reply if I was in his shoes. I can most honestly say that right now I do not feel anything for him except maybe a sense of concern. I wish him the best and that's all.

It's like the six merry murderesses of the Crookem Country Jail said - it was a murder but not a crime.

Formspring - August 2011

As scheduled, here is the post answering the questions put up during the month of August. There were some very weird submissions on my Formspring but you read on and tell me what do you think.

Q. O Na Na, What's my name?
A. Well I certainly know it ain't Rihanna. ;)

Q. What is your weirdest quirk?
A. I say the names of people I love out loud when I'm feeling tense.

Q. Designers or Models?
A. DESIGNERS!!!

Q. What is your opinion on cosmetic surgery?
A. Not a fan. But I do find it somewhat acceptable in the case when an individual wants to restore himself/herself after how he/she looks due to the complication of some disease, condition or accident. To go under the knife just to look younger or more gifted in a certain region of your anatomy is just plain wrong. However each to his own.

Q. What is your all time favorite Bollywood movie and why?
A. Hands down I have to say Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. I fell in love with it the first time I saw it and since then no other movie has made me feel the same way. The soundtrack is particularly awesome. I danced to the song Koi Mil Gaya at my uncle's wedding back in the summer of 1999. Also it features my all time favorite Bollywood couple - Shahrukh Khan and Kajol.



Q. What would you want as your boyfriend, werewolf or vampire?
A. Humans only please!

Q. If Lady GaGa had not arrived would Madonna still be ruling the gays?
A LOL @ 'arrived' - you made it sound like she's some alien, or perhaps you know more than the rest of us. But to answer your question, no. Eventually someone would have replaced Madonna. Also I think that every gay generation has their own queen, and no two queens can exist at the same time in the same generation.

Q. Have you ever been so happy you could die?
A. No. I've got all life to live. I've got all my love to give. I will survive!

Q. Do you ever get the feeling that you are neglecting someone?
A. Not to sound douchey or anything but I have got such a wide circle of friends and it is so vast that there is no possible way I can be in touch with all of them all the time. I have got stuff to do but I do remember to contact everyone once in a while. And if I know you and you have felt ignored, I'm sorry.

Q. Have you ever been bullied?
A. Yes, but not for my sexuality.

Q. Do you believe in chance encounters? Serendipity? Fate?
A. Yes, I do. And what would our lives be if there were no coincidences to give us that magical element of surprise?.

Q. So now that the thing with Josh is over, are you back in the dating game? Or are you going to put it on hold and focus on your career/studies?
A. I would say I am back but I am not looking for a boyfriend anymore. I will meet up if I find someone interesting but that too would be extremely rare. It is not just studies that I need to give time now but my mother tenses every time I step out given the present city conditions. So that means very very less dating, but how less I can not say.

Q. Should I get high-lights?
A. Hell no!

Q. Who/what inspires you the most?
A. The little miracles of God - they are a real life saver!

Q. What makes you all lively and cheered up when you are down?
A. Well there are alot of things but if I have to name a few of the most effective ones I would say babies, Glee, friends, ice-cream or just a good conversation.

Q. What's the most fascinating thing in the universe?
A. Girls! =P

Q. Do you think Muslims (Well Pakistanis) will ever get the same treatment they used to get before 9/11?
A. No. 9/11 completely changed the world, not just America. While yes it did give Muslims a bad name, however I believe Pakistan's involvement came in much later when some of the most wanted militants were reported to have been hiding in Pakistan.

Q. Jack Sparrow or Todd Sweeney, favorite Johnny Depp movie?
A. Jack Sparrow, while I did love Todd Sweeney but it was more because of Helena Bonham Carter. I absolutely adore her!

Q. How many suits do you own?
A. Four

Q. Have you ever wanted to just leave everything and go far far away from here?
A. Every once in a few weeks I get these impulses to runaway, far far away.

Q. Are you a Pokemon fan?
A. No. And unless you are less than 12 years of age, neither should you.

Q. Aside from Medicine, what has always been your passion?
A. Medicine is not my passion. I am doing it because my parents want me to become a doctor. It is one of the two things they want from me in life. Since the other is marriage, it is more suitable to give them this one and give them at least some satisfaction. My passion has, is and will always be Arts.

Q. I wish to see my posts in the past on BGBS ( Being Gay, Beyond Sex), can it be unlocked just for viewing?
A. I am terribly sorry but that's not a possibility. If I able the forum, I also able people to post in it. Since Christian wanted BGBS to be closed rather than crumble to a shadow of it's prime glory, he had it closed. We hated going down that road, however all good things must come to an end. Also I would like to thank you for your contributions to BGBS. I do miss that place alot!

Q. Are you top or bottom?
A. If I would engage in anal sex, I would be the bottom.

Q. Your favorite Bollywood actor and actress?
A. My favorite male lead is Shahid Kapoor and Akshay Kumar. My favorite actress has always been Kajol, but I have some liking for Priety Zinta, Priyanka Chopra and quite obviously Madhuri Dixit.

Q. Would you ever try any sex toys?
A. Hand cuffs probably but nothing else.

Q. What do you have to say about Beyonce announcing her pregnancy at VMAs?
A. Completely ridiculous. Absolutely completely ridiculous. As happy as I am for her but announcing your pregnancy at an award show is like begging for publicity. I'm no hater and we all know Beyonce is the last person on Planet Earth to need publicity, but this was so not needed.

Q. Do you agree with Beyonce when she says girls run the world?
A. Hell yeah. I completely agree with Beyonce.

Q. I live in Canada would you come to meet me?
A. Hahahaha - are you serious?! I really don't know. But if I ever plan to come to Canada, I will put it on my blog so you contact me and we can meet up if that's possible.

There are three questions remaining which were more or less on the same context, I shall be doing a post on them soon. I felt that they deserved a separate mention so who ever sent them my way, please be a little patient. Thank you! 

Formspring - August 2011

As scheduled, here is the post answering the questions put up during the month of August. There were some very weird submissions on my Formspring but you read on and tell me what do you think.

Q. O Na Na, What's my name?
A. Well I certainly know it ain't Rihanna. ;)

Q. What is your weirdest quirk?
A. I say the names of people I love out loud when I'm feeling tense.

Q. Designers or Models?
A. DESIGNERS!!!

Q. What is your opinion on cosmetic surgery?
A. Not a fan. But I do find it somewhat acceptable in the case when an individual wants to restore himself/herself after how he/she looks due to the complication of some disease, condition or accident. To go under the knife just to look younger or more gifted in a certain region of your anatomy is just plain wrong. However each to his own.

Q. What is your all time favorite Bollywood movie and why?
A. Hands down I have to say Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. I fell in love with it the first time I saw it and since then no other movie has made me feel the same way. The soundtrack is particularly awesome. I danced to the song Koi Mil Gaya at my uncle's wedding back in the summer of 1999. Also it features my all time favorite Bollywood couple - Shahrukh Khan and Kajol.



Q. What would you want as your boyfriend, werewolf or vampire?
A. Humans only please!

Q. If Lady GaGa had not arrived would Madonna still be ruling the gays?
A LOL @ 'arrived' - you made it sound like she's some alien, or perhaps you know more than the rest of us. But to answer your question, no. Eventually someone would have replaced Madonna. Also I think that every gay generation has their own queen, and no two queens can exist at the same time in the same generation.

Q. Have you ever been so happy you could die?
A. No. I've got all life to live. I've got all my love to give. I will survive!

Q. Do you ever get the feeling that you are neglecting someone?
A. Not to sound douchey or anything but I have got such a wide circle of friends and it is so vast that there is no possible way I can be in touch with all of them all the time. I have got stuff to do but I do remember to contact everyone once in a while. And if I know you and you have felt ignored, I'm sorry.

Q. Have you ever been bullied?
A. Yes, but not for my sexuality.

Q. Do you believe in chance encounters? Serendipity? Fate?
A. Yes, I do. And what would our lives be if there were no coincidences to give us that magical element of surprise?.

Q. So now that the thing with Josh is over, are you back in the dating game? Or are you going to put it on hold and focus on your career/studies?
A. I would say I am back but I am not looking for a boyfriend anymore. I will meet up if I find someone interesting but that too would be extremely rare. It is not just studies that I need to give time now but my mother tenses every time I step out given the present city conditions. So that means very very less dating, but how less I can not say.

Q. Should I get high-lights?
A. Hell no!

Q. Who/what inspires you the most?
A. The little miracles of God - they are a real life saver!

Q. What makes you all lively and cheered up when you are down?
A. Well there are alot of things but if I have to name a few of the most effective ones I would say babies, Glee, friends, ice-cream or just a good conversation.

Q. What's the most fascinating thing in the universe?
A. Girls! =P

Q. Do you think Muslims (Well Pakistanis) will ever get the same treatment they used to get before 9/11?
A. No. 9/11 completely changed the world, not just America. While yes it did give Muslims a bad name, however I believe Pakistan's involvement came in much later when some of the most wanted militants were reported to have been hiding in Pakistan.

Q. Jack Sparrow or Todd Sweeney, favorite Johnny Depp movie?
A. Jack Sparrow, while I did love Todd Sweeney but it was more because of Helena Bonham Carter. I absolutely adore her!

Q. How many suits do you own?
A. Four

Q. Have you ever wanted to just leave everything and go far far away from here?
A. Every once in a few weeks I get these impulses to runaway, far far away.

Q. Are you a Pokemon fan?
A. No. And unless you are less than 12 years of age, neither should you.

Q. Aside from Medicine, what has always been your passion?
A. Medicine is not my passion. I am doing it because my parents want me to become a doctor. It is one of the two things they want from me in life. Since the other is marriage, it is more suitable to give them this one and give them at least some satisfaction. My passion has, is and will always be Arts.

Q. I wish to see my posts in the past on BGBS ( Being Gay, Beyond Sex), can it be unlocked just for viewing?
A. I am terribly sorry but that's not a possibility. If I able the forum, I also able people to post in it. Since Christian wanted BGBS to be closed rather than crumble to a shadow of it's prime glory, he had it closed. We hated going down that road, however all good things must come to an end. Also I would like to thank you for your contributions to BGBS. I do miss that place alot!

Q. Are you top or bottom?
A. If I would engage in anal sex, I would be the bottom.

Q. Your favorite Bollywood actor and actress?
A. My favorite male lead is Shahid Kapoor and Akshay Kumar. My favorite actress has always been Kajol, but I have some liking for Priety Zinta, Priyanka Chopra and quite obviously Madhuri Dixit.

Q. Would you ever try any sex toys?
A. Hand cuffs probably but nothing else.

Q. What do you have to say about Beyonce announcing her pregnancy at VMAs?
A. Completely ridiculous. Absolutely completely ridiculous. As happy as I am for her but announcing your pregnancy at an award show is like begging for publicity. I'm no hater and we all know Beyonce is the last person on Planet Earth to need publicity, but this was so not needed.

Q. Do you agree with Beyonce when she says girls run the world?
A. Hell yeah. I completely agree with Beyonce.

Q. I live in Canada would you come to meet me?
A. Hahahaha - are you serious?! I really don't know. But if I ever plan to come to Canada, I will put it on my blog so you contact me and we can meet up if that's possible.

There are three questions remaining which were more or less on the same context, I shall be doing a post on them soon. I felt that they deserved a separate mention so who ever sent them my way, please be a little patient. Thank you! 

Ramadan Mubarak & Formspring - July 2011

I'm so sorry for being late. This post was supposed to go up yesterday, however I was busy the entire day in Ramadan preparation. I didn't have a single moment to myself the entire day, and at night when I got some time to myself I was so tired that I slept it off.

Speaking of Ramadan - I'm wishing each and every one of you a very happy Ramadan. May Allah bless you and your loved ones with all the wonderful things in the world, and may we all be successful in reaping the benefits of this Holy month to the maximum.

So as per schedule, it's time for the questions posted on my Formspring in July. Let's start!

Q. Why did Javier Colon win?
A. Because he got the most votes! =P

Q. Blondes or Brunettes ... or some other?
A. Brunettes most definitely. I find them extremely friendly for some reason, and I especially love the Dark Brown or Chocolate shade.

Q. What is your favorite Vampire TV Series?
A. True Blood no doubt!

Q. Are there any bloggers you are jealous of?
A. Jealous? No. Envious? Yes. I have learned to love my style of writing but at times I wish I could be as witty and intellectual as M@rvin, or as exposed in my writings as Closeted. I absolutely love their writing style.

Q. Your Favorite Katy Perry song?
A. Teenage Dream no doubt. Yes! Yes! You don't need to say it. I'm completely obsessed and totally in love with her, while she's happily married. Story of my life! *sighs*

Q. Are you still in touch with Nathan?
A. Yes. We are actually pretty good friends now.

Q. Do you believe in Santa Claus?
A. Only if he gets me what I want next Christmas! =P

Q. On a scale from 1 to 5, how would you rate yourself a a friend?
A. If I designate '1' as the lowest and '5' as the highest, I would say I'm a 2.5 I think.

Q. Does the human mind fascinate you?
A. Depends on who's mind is it that we are talking about.

Q. What other languages would you want to learn the most?
A. I believe I have already answered or mentioned this somewhere previously but I'd mention it here again. The languages are Punjabi and Espanol. I find both these languages extremely romantic!

Q. Do you search for porn on the Internet when you get the urge?
A. No, I have my collection safely stored in a 4GB USB. But to be clear, the entire 4GB doesn't contain porn. There are some drafts of various things I have written, and a few all time favorite songs that I do not want to loose.

Q. Can a person ever get internal satisfaction and can he ever be who he wants to be?
A. No. Every person is a mixture of what he wants himself to be and what the environment around him is, along with his past experiences and his thoughts all mixed together into a wonderful potpourri.

Q. If given the opportunity, what's the one thing you would like to change about yourself?
A. Procastination no doubt!

Q. Good sense of humor or good sense of hygiene or good sense of fashion, what's more of a turn-on for you?
A. Good sense of humor - I can take care of the other two for him very easily, and we both would actually enjoy it!

Q. What is the most scariest thing in life for you?
A. Letting down somebody I love - not necessarily family; or loosing my family because of my sexuality.

Q. What is your favorite animal, and why?
A. I really don't have a favorite animal. Sorry!

Q. Should I wax my legs and ass? - Hopeless Queen
A. Hell no. A little fuzz looks good on a man!

Q. Were you a fan of the late Amy Winehouse?
A. I was a fan of some of her songs. My favorite being Tears Dry on Their Own, Valerie and Back to Black. However my all time favorite Amy Winehouse song is Love Is A Losing Game. Absolutely thrilling!

Q. Blackberry, Android or iPad/iPhone?
A. I'll be happy with whatever you get me. =D

Q. Do you believe that everybody winds up with the perfect person for them?
A. There's no perfect. There's almost perfect! And I do believe that such people do exist, but them ending up together is not necessarily something I believe in.

Q. Would you become a vegan if given a chance?
A. I can't say. But I would take up the offer and give it a serious shot!


Q. Men in tight Tees or Men in suits?
A. Men in suits most definitely. Nothing is more of a turn on than formal wear!

Q. What's your favorite song from the gay icon Cher? Also, who is your all time favorite gay icon?
A. I have never ever heard of a single song by Cher, and I do not plan to either. I never really got into Madonna or Diana Ross, so there isn't really a possibility of liking Cher either. As for my all time favorite gay icon would come off as no surprise - Ellen Degeneres.

That's all for the month of July. Be sure to check in on 1st September for the questions posted in August. Take care. Once again Happy Ramadan to everyone!

Ramadan Mubarak & Formspring - July 2011

I'm so sorry for being late. This post was supposed to go up yesterday, however I was busy the entire day in Ramadan preparation. I didn't have a single moment to myself the entire day, and at night when I got some time to myself I was so tired that I slept it off.

Speaking of Ramadan - I'm wishing each and every one of you a very happy Ramadan. May Allah bless you and your loved ones with all the wonderful things in the world, and may we all be successful in reaping the benefits of this Holy month to the maximum.

So as per schedule, it's time for the questions posted on my Formspring in July. Let's start!

Q. Why did Javier Colon win?
A. Because he got the most votes! =P

Q. Blondes or Brunettes ... or some other?
A. Brunettes most definitely. I find them extremely friendly for some reason, and I especially love the Dark Brown or Chocolate shade.

Q. What is your favorite Vampire TV Series?
A. True Blood no doubt!

Q. Are there any bloggers you are jealous of?
A. Jealous? No. Envious? Yes. I have learned to love my style of writing but at times I wish I could be as witty and intellectual as M@rvin, or as exposed in my writings as Closeted. I absolutely love their writing style.

Q. Your Favorite Katy Perry song?
A. Teenage Dream no doubt. Yes! Yes! You don't need to say it. I'm completely obsessed and totally in love with her, while she's happily married. Story of my life! *sighs*

Q. Are you still in touch with Nathan?
A. Yes. We are actually pretty good friends now.

Q. Do you believe in Santa Claus?
A. Only if he gets me what I want next Christmas! =P

Q. On a scale from 1 to 5, how would you rate yourself a a friend?
A. If I designate '1' as the lowest and '5' as the highest, I would say I'm a 2.5 I think.

Q. Does the human mind fascinate you?
A. Depends on who's mind is it that we are talking about.

Q. What other languages would you want to learn the most?
A. I believe I have already answered or mentioned this somewhere previously but I'd mention it here again. The languages are Punjabi and Espanol. I find both these languages extremely romantic!

Q. Do you search for porn on the Internet when you get the urge?
A. No, I have my collection safely stored in a 4GB USB. But to be clear, the entire 4GB doesn't contain porn. There are some drafts of various things I have written, and a few all time favorite songs that I do not want to loose.

Q. Can a person ever get internal satisfaction and can he ever be who he wants to be?
A. No. Every person is a mixture of what he wants himself to be and what the environment around him is, along with his past experiences and his thoughts all mixed together into a wonderful potpourri.

Q. If given the opportunity, what's the one thing you would like to change about yourself?
A. Procastination no doubt!

Q. Good sense of humor or good sense of hygiene or good sense of fashion, what's more of a turn-on for you?
A. Good sense of humor - I can take care of the other two for him very easily, and we both would actually enjoy it!

Q. What is the most scariest thing in life for you?
A. Letting down somebody I love - not necessarily family; or loosing my family because of my sexuality.

Q. What is your favorite animal, and why?
A. I really don't have a favorite animal. Sorry!

Q. Should I wax my legs and ass? - Hopeless Queen
A. Hell no. A little fuzz looks good on a man!

Q. Were you a fan of the late Amy Winehouse?
A. I was a fan of some of her songs. My favorite being Tears Dry on Their Own, Valerie and Back to Black. However my all time favorite Amy Winehouse song is Love Is A Losing Game. Absolutely thrilling!

Q. Blackberry, Android or iPad/iPhone?
A. I'll be happy with whatever you get me. =D

Q. Do you believe that everybody winds up with the perfect person for them?
A. There's no perfect. There's almost perfect! And I do believe that such people do exist, but them ending up together is not necessarily something I believe in.

Q. Would you become a vegan if given a chance?
A. I can't say. But I would take up the offer and give it a serious shot!


Q. Men in tight Tees or Men in suits?
A. Men in suits most definitely. Nothing is more of a turn on than formal wear!

Q. What's your favorite song from the gay icon Cher? Also, who is your all time favorite gay icon?
A. I have never ever heard of a single song by Cher, and I do not plan to either. I never really got into Madonna or Diana Ross, so there isn't really a possibility of liking Cher either. As for my all time favorite gay icon would come off as no surprise - Ellen Degeneres.

That's all for the month of July. Be sure to check in on 1st September for the questions posted in August. Take care. Once again Happy Ramadan to everyone!

Formspring - June 2011

As scheduled, here's the post answering your questions for June. There's going to a long silence here onward, except for at PFL as I have decided to publish some of the scheduled posts there that I have previously published here.

Q. Who's your favorite novelist/author?
A. To be really honest, there isn't like just one. I have favorites, but there like ten or something. No particular exists, and they keep changing time to time. Nowadays it's Alex Sanchez!

Q. Who has been your favorite American Idol winner so far?
A. I'm torn between Carrie Underwood and Kelly Clarkson, but judging from my current play list I'd have to say Carrie Underwood.

Q. Earliest gay memory?
A. Crushing on a boy named Andrew in 4th Grade. I didn't know about homosexuality or even what a crush is, but I do remember being intensely fond of him and wanting to be with him.

Q. Will you stop blogging if your boyfriend asks you not to, stating issues being uncomfortable of you sharing details which he considers special?
A. I'd agree to not publish details regarding the happenings between us, but blogging about things that involve strictly me or other people in my life will not come to a halt. If there is something that I think may make him feel uncomfortable, I'd have him read it before I publish it so that I can have his opinion on it.

Q. Have you ever considered being single by choice?
A. I have. At the beginning on the year, I did. But then I met Josh and things seemed to click. But while things are going good with Josh, I'm not entirely feeling the need to get committed to him. It's not that I want to date other guys. I feel a relationship would take time away from more crucial areas of my life that needs my attention, like my studies.

Q. I read in some post that the guy you would date should have same faith, does this mean he needs to be of the same religion?
A. Yes. I would prefer him to be of the same religion, as later on when kids come into the picture there aren't any clashes about the beliefs.

Q. At what age did you first masturbate? And at what age did you bed with a guy?
A. Sixteen and nineteen!

Q. What is your Zodiac Sign and Blood Group?
A. I will not be disclosing my Zodiac because I do not want to. But my blood group is B+!

Q. Can you put on your pants both legs at the same time?
A. Being a person with normal human flexibility and reflexes, I can't. Sorry to dissappoint you!

Q. How active is your sex life? Ever had sex at all?
A. My last moment involving intimacy happened on 12th July 2010 which I mentioned in my post here, and if you are talking about full on sex then that has never happened.

Q. Why do you not write posts on Gracie? Same goes for Amanda. I want to know about the girls in your life.
A. I'm extremely sorry for not having posted any on these beauties since quite a time. I know I have left you hanging on about my coming out to Amanda, and several interesting conversations with her. Gracie and I have made a million memories with all the drama that we have been put through. I have to tell you guys all that. I can't blog any much more than I already do. But I promise if this blog is ever going to shut down, it's not going to happen till atleast I have been over these two lovely ladies.

Q. Did you ever face any problem with a girl pressing themselves for you?
A. Once, and it didn't go well at all. She stopped talking to me when I told her that I am not interested in having any form of romance. I was kind of rude to her, but we made up much later.

Q. Will you date a guy who smokes?
A. Nopes. Never! If he has quit and has shaken off the addiction for good, I'll be fine with that. But somebody who currently indulges in the habit won't get very far with me.

Q. Now that you are putting the 'hunk back in Phunk', has your preference level or criteria for men to be your potential boyfriend elevated?
A. No. I'm guessing you meant physically speaking, and no - it hasn't changed the least. He needs to be good looking enough to turn me on, and my good looks criteria hasn't changed at all. I'm still crushing on the same regular guys I did before I started going to the gym.

Q. I don't know whether you believe in fairy tales or not, but I want to ask you whether if a fairy grants you a wish where in you could become straight from gay, would you ask for a changeover? Do provide us a reason for your choice!
A. Yes, I would. The reason would be alot of things that my family would have to face would automatically be solved. Otherwise I'm very much cool with being gay.

Q. You once mentioned that there was a cat who used to lie outside your room all the time. Isn't it around anymore? And in case I've got this wrong,  then let's flip the question a bit; what's your take on the line that gay guys and cats get along well?
A. It wasn't my room, but the room I was living in when I was visiting my uncle. It was my cousin's cat, and judging from the recent pictures I got of a part at their place she's still around. As far as cats and gay guys go, I don't think you can tame a cat. As much as I love cats, I think they're extremely mean creatures.

Q. Do you think there is any man hotter than Phil Fusco?
A. Yes, Paul Walker and Jensen Ackles. Also there is Andy Samberg.

Q. In one of your posts I got an impression that you are out to your mom about being gay?
A. Yup, I am! I think you are talking about this post. Right?

Q. What is your favorite album from 2010?
A. Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream'. I'm still in love with all the tracks that I liked back when it came out, and I really don't think she would be able to top her 2nd record.

Q. What's is the cutest thing about Josh?
A. His dimpled smile for sure.

Questions that I could answer are listed below because either they were too personal, possibly directly linked to my identity or I could not understand what was being asked.

1. Are you on the Edge of Glory?
2. What is your Zodiac Sign?
3. When will you be graduating?

Before I end, another thing I would like to discuss is the remark left on my Formspring;

Maintaining blogs up to date is sometimes such a pain. For you apparently it's thrice. I've been reading many blogs and get attached to a few of them. A few bloggers out of them have ditched me ( They have stopped blogging) I understand their limitation.

To the gentleman/lady who left this remark I'd like to say that I do not plan to stop blogging right now at least. I have got quite a lot of things to tell the world, the speed may decline as my life progresses because of job and perhaps a family. But if I ever plan to stop blogging for good, I'd leave a post saying so. I would never leave you guys hanging in the lurch. If that ever happens, there is only one possible explanation and that is the Phunk ran out of funk if you know what I mean. Don't worry. I'm around for a very long time!

Formspring - June 2011

As scheduled, here's the post answering your questions for June. There's going to a long silence here onward, except for at PFL as I have decided to publish some of the scheduled posts there that I have previously published here.

Q. Who's your favorite novelist/author?
A. To be really honest, there isn't like just one. I have favorites, but there like ten or something. No particular exists, and they keep changing time to time. Nowadays it's Alex Sanchez!

Q. Who has been your favorite American Idol winner so far?
A. I'm torn between Carrie Underwood and Kelly Clarkson, but judging from my current play list I'd have to say Carrie Underwood.

Q. Earliest gay memory?
A. Crushing on a boy named Andrew in 4th Grade. I didn't know about homosexuality or even what a crush is, but I do remember being intensely fond of him and wanting to be with him.

Q. Will you stop blogging if your boyfriend asks you not to, stating issues being uncomfortable of you sharing details which he considers special?
A. I'd agree to not publish details regarding the happenings between us, but blogging about things that involve strictly me or other people in my life will not come to a halt. If there is something that I think may make him feel uncomfortable, I'd have him read it before I publish it so that I can have his opinion on it.

Q. Have you ever considered being single by choice?
A. I have. At the beginning on the year, I did. But then I met Josh and things seemed to click. But while things are going good with Josh, I'm not entirely feeling the need to get committed to him. It's not that I want to date other guys. I feel a relationship would take time away from more crucial areas of my life that needs my attention, like my studies.

Q. I read in some post that the guy you would date should have same faith, does this mean he needs to be of the same religion?
A. Yes. I would prefer him to be of the same religion, as later on when kids come into the picture there aren't any clashes about the beliefs.

Q. At what age did you first masturbate? And at what age did you bed with a guy?
A. Sixteen and nineteen!

Q. What is your Zodiac Sign and Blood Group?
A. I will not be disclosing my Zodiac because I do not want to. But my blood group is B+!

Q. Can you put on your pants both legs at the same time?
A. Being a person with normal human flexibility and reflexes, I can't. Sorry to dissappoint you!

Q. How active is your sex life? Ever had sex at all?
A. My last moment involving intimacy happened on 12th July 2010 which I mentioned in my post here, and if you are talking about full on sex then that has never happened.

Q. Why do you not write posts on Gracie? Same goes for Amanda. I want to know about the girls in your life.
A. I'm extremely sorry for not having posted any on these beauties since quite a time. I know I have left you hanging on about my coming out to Amanda, and several interesting conversations with her. Gracie and I have made a million memories with all the drama that we have been put through. I have to tell you guys all that. I can't blog any much more than I already do. But I promise if this blog is ever going to shut down, it's not going to happen till atleast I have been over these two lovely ladies.

Q. Did you ever face any problem with a girl pressing themselves for you?
A. Once, and it didn't go well at all. She stopped talking to me when I told her that I am not interested in having any form of romance. I was kind of rude to her, but we made up much later.

Q. Will you date a guy who smokes?
A. Nopes. Never! If he has quit and has shaken off the addiction for good, I'll be fine with that. But somebody who currently indulges in the habit won't get very far with me.

Q. Now that you are putting the 'hunk back in Phunk', has your preference level or criteria for men to be your potential boyfriend elevated?
A. No. I'm guessing you meant physically speaking, and no - it hasn't changed the least. He needs to be good looking enough to turn me on, and my good looks criteria hasn't changed at all. I'm still crushing on the same regular guys I did before I started going to the gym.

Q. I don't know whether you believe in fairy tales or not, but I want to ask you whether if a fairy grants you a wish where in you could become straight from gay, would you ask for a changeover? Do provide us a reason for your choice!
A. Yes, I would. The reason would be alot of things that my family would have to face would automatically be solved. Otherwise I'm very much cool with being gay.

Q. You once mentioned that there was a cat who used to lie outside your room all the time. Isn't it around anymore? And in case I've got this wrong,  then let's flip the question a bit; what's your take on the line that gay guys and cats get along well?
A. It wasn't my room, but the room I was living in when I was visiting my uncle. It was my cousin's cat, and judging from the recent pictures I got of a part at their place she's still around. As far as cats and gay guys go, I don't think you can tame a cat. As much as I love cats, I think they're extremely mean creatures.

Q. Do you think there is any man hotter than Phil Fusco?
A. Yes, Paul Walker and Jensen Ackles. Also there is Andy Samberg.

Q. In one of your posts I got an impression that you are out to your mom about being gay?
A. Yup, I am! I think you are talking about this post. Right?

Q. What is your favorite album from 2010?
A. Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream'. I'm still in love with all the tracks that I liked back when it came out, and I really don't think she would be able to top her 2nd record.

Q. What's is the cutest thing about Josh?
A. His dimpled smile for sure.

Questions that I could answer are listed below because either they were too personal, possibly directly linked to my identity or I could not understand what was being asked.

1. Are you on the Edge of Glory?
2. What is your Zodiac Sign?
3. When will you be graduating?

Before I end, another thing I would like to discuss is the remark left on my Formspring;

Maintaining blogs up to date is sometimes such a pain. For you apparently it's thrice. I've been reading many blogs and get attached to a few of them. A few bloggers out of them have ditched me ( They have stopped blogging) I understand their limitation.

To the gentleman/lady who left this remark I'd like to say that I do not plan to stop blogging right now at least. I have got quite a lot of things to tell the world, the speed may decline as my life progresses because of job and perhaps a family. But if I ever plan to stop blogging for good, I'd leave a post saying so. I would never leave you guys hanging in the lurch. If that ever happens, there is only one possible explanation and that is the Phunk ran out of funk if you know what I mean. Don't worry. I'm around for a very long time!

Do'in It Like Rihanna

This incident is a few weeks old, but it got lost in the draft posts. Recently somebody left a request to post on a similar topic so I decided it was time to put this one up for everyone to see.

I had been speaking to a guy who contacted me Online since a few weeks. We could not meet because I have been extremely busy in my schedule. There is literally not much room to do anything else besides studying and wanking. Kidd'in!

He seemed very decent from his conversation and spoke very eloquently. I remember that when he contacted me for the very first time, he actually had typed this extremely articulated message. Most people from the dating site can't spell correctly much less craft exquisitely. I responded to the message and we hit it off on a good note.

One of the first things I check before responding or contacting any profile is if the person is 'Single' or 'Married'. His profile mentioned him to be single, so I thought it was all cool. He did not consider mentioning this fact to me till a significant time had passed. Before knowing this we had talked alot, even on relationships. He appreciated the fact that I am looking for a monogamous relation as it is something that most people never bother with. I asked his stance on the issue.

"I'm also looking for a monogamous relationship!", he told me in his follow up message.

No!, I didn't immediately start considering him as a potential boyfriend. I don't get into a relationship simply because the other happens to be single and is looking for a relationship. I prefer letting nature run it's course and only acting upon my feelings once I know that I actually like this guy. But still it felt nice to talk to somebody who shared a similar opinion. Upon that note, he asked me if we could exchange numbers. I sent him my number in response.

A few days later, he text messaged me if I would like to be in a relationship with him. He mentioned that he likes me but isn't exactly sure about it yet. He would prefer that we meet up sometime soon and see how things proceed. I had started to talk to Josh at that point so while I was up for a meeting, I was not entirely sure about being in a relationship with him. However I told him we can meet up sometime soon.

While exchanging messages he mentioned that he needs to go to some place with his parents. Later the next day, I asked him where did he go yesterday to get the conversation ball rolling.

"Dinner at my in-laws", he text messaged me back.

Upon reading his message I went into shock. "You are married?", I asked him. I was more angry that he was married and looking for guys to be in a relationship with than the fact that he lied to me.

"No! Just engaged!", read his reply.

"How come you didn't mention that?", I asked him.

"Does it make a difference?", he asked me.

"Hell yeah! I don't date married guys!", I replied. "And how you could be think of being in a relationship with a guy when you are going to be married to a girl? You are not even married and you are preparing to cheat on her!"

"It's not cheating if it's a relationship!", he replied.

I was way too angry to talk via text messaging so I called him up. "So you plan to be in a relationship with a girl and a guy at the same time?", I asked him.

"Yeah!", he replied.

"And how is that a monogamous relationship?", I asked him.

"One of each!", he replied.

Oh My God. He's one seriously effed up individual. Not only are his notions completely messed up but his English needs some tuning as well. My mind exploded from rage and I cut the call as I let my blood cool down. A few minutes later I shot him a text, "Dude, forget it! I'm not interested in being in contact with you anymore. Goodbye!"

He text messaged me "Okay" a few seconds later but a few days later he wanted to talk and kept on text messaging me. I never bothered to reply to him. I can't risk talking to him again because either I'd kill him or die from high blood pressure. Never in my entire life have I come across someone so seriously messed up. Never ever!

Anymore talk and I would have gone all Rihanna on his ass!

Another part on the same issue will be coming up soon later this week. 

Do'in It Like Rihanna

This incident is a few weeks old, but it got lost in the draft posts. Recently somebody left a request to post on a similar topic so I decided it was time to put this one up for everyone to see.

I had been speaking to a guy who contacted me Online since a few weeks. We could not meet because I have been extremely busy in my schedule. There is literally not much room to do anything else besides studying and wanking. Kidd'in!

He seemed very decent from his conversation and spoke very eloquently. I remember that when he contacted me for the very first time, he actually had typed this extremely articulated message. Most people from the dating site can't spell correctly much less craft exquisitely. I responded to the message and we hit it off on a good note.

One of the first things I check before responding or contacting any profile is if the person is 'Single' or 'Married'. His profile mentioned him to be single, so I thought it was all cool. He did not consider mentioning this fact to me till a significant time had passed. Before knowing this we had talked alot, even on relationships. He appreciated the fact that I am looking for a monogamous relation as it is something that most people never bother with. I asked his stance on the issue.

"I'm also looking for a monogamous relationship!", he told me in his follow up message.

No!, I didn't immediately start considering him as a potential boyfriend. I don't get into a relationship simply because the other happens to be single and is looking for a relationship. I prefer letting nature run it's course and only acting upon my feelings once I know that I actually like this guy. But still it felt nice to talk to somebody who shared a similar opinion. Upon that note, he asked me if we could exchange numbers. I sent him my number in response.

A few days later, he text messaged me if I would like to be in a relationship with him. He mentioned that he likes me but isn't exactly sure about it yet. He would prefer that we meet up sometime soon and see how things proceed. I had started to talk to Josh at that point so while I was up for a meeting, I was not entirely sure about being in a relationship with him. However I told him we can meet up sometime soon.

While exchanging messages he mentioned that he needs to go to some place with his parents. Later the next day, I asked him where did he go yesterday to get the conversation ball rolling.

"Dinner at my in-laws", he text messaged me back.

Upon reading his message I went into shock. "You are married?", I asked him. I was more angry that he was married and looking for guys to be in a relationship with than the fact that he lied to me.

"No! Just engaged!", read his reply.

"How come you didn't mention that?", I asked him.

"Does it make a difference?", he asked me.

"Hell yeah! I don't date married guys!", I replied. "And how you could be think of being in a relationship with a guy when you are going to be married to a girl? You are not even married and you are preparing to cheat on her!"

"It's not cheating if it's a relationship!", he replied.

I was way too angry to talk via text messaging so I called him up. "So you plan to be in a relationship with a girl and a guy at the same time?", I asked him.

"Yeah!", he replied.

"And how is that a monogamous relationship?", I asked him.

"One of each!", he replied.

Oh My God. He's one seriously effed up individual. Not only are his notions completely messed up but his English needs some tuning as well. My mind exploded from rage and I cut the call as I let my blood cool down. A few minutes later I shot him a text, "Dude, forget it! I'm not interested in being in contact with you anymore. Goodbye!"

He text messaged me "Okay" a few seconds later but a few days later he wanted to talk and kept on text messaging me. I never bothered to reply to him. I can't risk talking to him again because either I'd kill him or die from high blood pressure. Never in my entire life have I come across someone so seriously messed up. Never ever!

Anymore talk and I would have gone all Rihanna on his ass!

Another part on the same issue will be coming up soon later this week. 

Formspring - March & April 2011

As mentioned in a previous post I have set up a Formspring and at the first of every month I would be putting up the answers to the questions asked. So here are the questions that were asked in March and April. Hope you enjoy reading!

Q.What was the best concert you went to?
A. Personally I have never ever attended a concert except for my local school band back when I was in A Levels and it was hardly any fun at all. The guitarist and the drummer couldn't get their act together, plus the vocalist had a serious case of nerves. No fun at all!

Q.When was the last time you gave flowers?
A. February 28th! It was a friend's birthday and she especially requested to not get anything, but obviously I couldn't go without anything so I gave flowers and a card.

Q. Most people like you (Sort of), especially bloggers like to pose themselves on their blogs, as they mostly like the attention they are getting via their writing, why don't you? Is it because of the anti-gay community you are living in? - Roy Hall
A. Excellent question, Roy! And excellent observation! Yes, that's why I have not put up my picture on my blog. Perhaps sometime in future I may and it won't be a naked one. But yes, I have not put up a picture that reveals who I am because of the community I live in.

Q. Lol...your poll on 'Age of your partner' missed out on people who fall in this category: 'Age doesn't matter!'
A. Perhaps but I don't think such people exist. Age is a factor everybody considers, in my opinion!

Q. Hi! I have a question. Why don't you put up adds, make some money..:)
A. Hi to you too! That's actually a very good idea but I don't like the idea of adds littering up and popping between my writings.

Q. How can you be so sexy?
A. I'm flattered that you perceive me to be sexy. But to be perfectly honest, it's not me. You find me sexy, so I guess the answer truly lies with you.

Q. Did you like Lady GaGa's Judas?
A. Nopes, I didn't like Judas at all. It sounds too much like Bad Romance which is one of my favorite songs of all time so it makes me feel that there is absolutely nothing original in it. More importantly with all the biblical references, I didn't feel at ease listening to it - something about that song creeps me out. Especially the line about washing his (Judas) feet with her (GaGa) hair!

Q. A wants to be good friends with B wherein A has dumped B, and A has moved on and B is still trying to move on, but somewhere still has feelings for A.
A. I think A should respect B's feelings and put a halt to their friendship for however long B desires. If A truly wants to be friends with B then he would be willing to be friends once B has completely gotten over him/her. It is going to be much harder for B since the dumpee always has more work to do in most cases.

Q. Do you believe in love at first sight?
A. Absolutely not!

Two questions I didn't answer were;

1. What is the farthest you've ever shot your wad? - Trey Tomorrow
2. How often do you jack off?

Got a question?

Go ahead. Ask me!  

Formspring - March & April 2011

As mentioned in a previous post I have set up a Formspring and at the first of every month I would be putting up the answers to the questions asked. So here are the questions that were asked in March and April. Hope you enjoy reading!

Q.What was the best concert you went to?
A. Personally I have never ever attended a concert except for my local school band back when I was in A Levels and it was hardly any fun at all. The guitarist and the drummer couldn't get their act together, plus the vocalist had a serious case of nerves. No fun at all!

Q.When was the last time you gave flowers?
A. February 28th! It was a friend's birthday and she especially requested to not get anything, but obviously I couldn't go without anything so I gave flowers and a card.

Q. Most people like you (Sort of), especially bloggers like to pose themselves on their blogs, as they mostly like the attention they are getting via their writing, why don't you? Is it because of the anti-gay community you are living in? - Roy Hall
A. Excellent question, Roy! And excellent observation! Yes, that's why I have not put up my picture on my blog. Perhaps sometime in future I may and it won't be a naked one. But yes, I have not put up a picture that reveals who I am because of the community I live in.

Q. Lol...your poll on 'Age of your partner' missed out on people who fall in this category: 'Age doesn't matter!'
A. Perhaps but I don't think such people exist. Age is a factor everybody considers, in my opinion!

Q. Hi! I have a question. Why don't you put up adds, make some money..:)
A. Hi to you too! That's actually a very good idea but I don't like the idea of adds littering up and popping between my writings.

Q. How can you be so sexy?
A. I'm flattered that you perceive me to be sexy. But to be perfectly honest, it's not me. You find me sexy, so I guess the answer truly lies with you.

Q. Did you like Lady GaGa's Judas?
A. Nopes, I didn't like Judas at all. It sounds too much like Bad Romance which is one of my favorite songs of all time so it makes me feel that there is absolutely nothing original in it. More importantly with all the biblical references, I didn't feel at ease listening to it - something about that song creeps me out. Especially the line about washing his (Judas) feet with her (GaGa) hair!

Q. A wants to be good friends with B wherein A has dumped B, and A has moved on and B is still trying to move on, but somewhere still has feelings for A.
A. I think A should respect B's feelings and put a halt to their friendship for however long B desires. If A truly wants to be friends with B then he would be willing to be friends once B has completely gotten over him/her. It is going to be much harder for B since the dumpee always has more work to do in most cases.

Q. Do you believe in love at first sight?
A. Absolutely not!

Two questions I didn't answer were;

1. What is the farthest you've ever shot your wad? - Trey Tomorrow
2. How often do you jack off?

Got a question?

Go ahead. Ask me!  

Ask Me Anything - Quick Update

I have been meaning to post this since quite sometime now but it somehow always kept slipping my mind. Stupid me!

Abit after turning one, I decided to open a Formspring account. My followers or anyone who happens to randomly come across my blog randomly can send me any questions they wish to ask. At the first of every new month, I will answer all the questions submitted the month earlier.

In case there is some question I can not answer, it will be listed at the end of the post in red. But knowing myself, only the super personal questions would be turned down.

Personally I would have completely forgotten about it but I got an email yesterday that I have six questions pending and I was like 'WTF?!', which brings forth my apology to those who have already asked me something. I will be answering to all questions submitted in March along with the ones asked in April. I promise!

Formspring enables you to ask questions anonymously if identity is something you would like to keep hidden.

Plus this will give me a chance to put up really hot pics like the one below without really finding an appropriate post for it. There is a method to my madness - and you better believe it!

You can locate the Formspring box at the right side of the screen in blue. I have made a similar one for Coffee & Boys but the answers will be posted here. Hope everyone is having a fun weekend!

Ask Me Anything - Quick Update

I have been meaning to post this since quite sometime now but it somehow always kept slipping my mind. Stupid me!

Abit after turning one, I decided to open a Formspring account. My followers or anyone who happens to randomly come across my blog randomly can send me any questions they wish to ask. At the first of every new month, I will answer all the questions submitted the month earlier.

In case there is some question I can not answer, it will be listed at the end of the post in red. But knowing myself, only the super personal questions would be turned down.

Personally I would have completely forgotten about it but I got an email yesterday that I have six questions pending and I was like 'WTF?!', which brings forth my apology to those who have already asked me something. I will be answering to all questions submitted in March along with the ones asked in April. I promise!

Formspring enables you to ask questions anonymously if identity is something you would like to keep hidden.

Plus this will give me a chance to put up really hot pics like the one below without really finding an appropriate post for it. There is a method to my madness - and you better believe it!

You can locate the Formspring box at the right side of the screen in blue. I have made a similar one for Coffee & Boys but the answers will be posted here. Hope everyone is having a fun weekend!