Two posts ago I mentioned in an entry that there is a new guy I am sort of interested in. Now I am telling you that I'm definitely interested in him, and that I am not quite sure exactly if he's interested in me or not. I keep getting mixed signals from him which is probably the worst thing about this whole dilemma.
The thing that sort of makes me very dubious about this whole thing that he's younger than me. He's three years younger than me, but so far he hasn't done anything that would make me want to gift him a laser watch on his next birthday. Plus it's more about the person's mental maturity as compared to his physical maturity, which is again something I am trying to do despite the fact that Amanda telling me that I don't need to. According to her, I am mature than most of the neanderthals she has known in her life. She's a sweet heart, I tell you - not that I was already aware of it!
The main thing that keeps bothering me that I am getting the hot and cold treatment from him. Like he would initiate a conversation by text messaging and then disappear half-way. He would apologize for falling asleep half-way which has led me to making sure that he sleeps on time. A few days ago I caught him Online at four in the morning, trying not to be paranoid I asked him about it the next day. I wasn't concerned that he might be chatting up with some other guy but that he was awake when he should be sleeping. He would sleep only two frigg'in hours a day if he had his own way. It's not that he has alot of studying to do, it's because he can't give up on any of his extra-curricular activities. When I told Ryan this detail, he could not help but roll his eyes at me and give me a lecture on how I starting baby-sitting every guy I come across even before I get seriously involved with him. "The only person you are allowed to baby-sit is me!", he said. I could not really make out if he was serious or being funny.
The best part is that he's flirting - on his own. But I am not quite sure how to respond to most of his quips. my flirting skills seriously need a tuning. We share a very similar passion for music. A few weeks after Lady GaGa released 'Born This Way', I got a message from him saying;
The thing that sort of makes me very dubious about this whole thing that he's younger than me. He's three years younger than me, but so far he hasn't done anything that would make me want to gift him a laser watch on his next birthday. Plus it's more about the person's mental maturity as compared to his physical maturity, which is again something I am trying to do despite the fact that Amanda telling me that I don't need to. According to her, I am mature than most of the neanderthals she has known in her life. She's a sweet heart, I tell you - not that I was already aware of it!
The main thing that keeps bothering me that I am getting the hot and cold treatment from him. Like he would initiate a conversation by text messaging and then disappear half-way. He would apologize for falling asleep half-way which has led me to making sure that he sleeps on time. A few days ago I caught him Online at four in the morning, trying not to be paranoid I asked him about it the next day. I wasn't concerned that he might be chatting up with some other guy but that he was awake when he should be sleeping. He would sleep only two frigg'in hours a day if he had his own way. It's not that he has alot of studying to do, it's because he can't give up on any of his extra-curricular activities. When I told Ryan this detail, he could not help but roll his eyes at me and give me a lecture on how I starting baby-sitting every guy I come across even before I get seriously involved with him. "The only person you are allowed to baby-sit is me!", he said. I could not really make out if he was serious or being funny.
The best part is that he's flirting - on his own. But I am not quite sure how to respond to most of his quips. my flirting skills seriously need a tuning. We share a very similar passion for music. A few weeks after Lady GaGa released 'Born This Way', I got a message from him saying;
Doesn't matter if you love him,
Just put your paws up
'Cause, you were born this way Phunk
On a side note, he doesn't know about 'Phunk Factor' yet and I don't plan on telling him for quite sometime. He replaced 'Baby' in the lyrics with my real pet name which sort of sounds very close to the original word. Perhaps I am reading too much into this!
Then he has already starting messaging me in the morning, and replies to my good night messages. I wasn't entirely sure to spring up on this band wagon. Nathan and I did the same but upon getting into the relation.
As mentioned earlier that I haven't told him about 'Phunk Factor', but happens to know about everything else to me that there is. I have told him I was committed twice before and that I am out to a couple of friends. I have gay friends who know me by identity. Anything that could possibly freak him out and push him away from me is already out on the table except that I own a blog. If somehow he was to come across it, I have a feeling that he could put one and one together and make two. However I will not be telling him until I am absolutely sure that we are committed in a monogamous loving relation.
Somethings about him are throwing me completely off. Manjam, where I find guys from, offers a free membership. If you happen to be a free member, you can send a fixed number of messages every twenty four hours. Only once somebody has approved your friendship request can you send him as many messages as you want. He replies to my messages five to six hours after reading them. I don't know if he's genuinely busy or he forgets about them or he's playing some sort of mind game. I'm hoping it isn't the last option because I hate mind games and those who play them just as much. I don't bother with it because dating is already pretty confusing without all this petty foolishness. I reply when I go Online, if I can't I tell him that I'm busy but I'll reply to his message as soon as possible. Maybe I come off as desperate by this manner.
Secondly I have asked him out twice, both times he turned me down. I don't plan on asking him out for a third time. If he is interested, he would ask me. I am not asking him for the third time at least not anytime soon. It's not like he doesn't meet guys, he has met a couple of guys from what he told me.
All I can do now is hope and be as normal as possible. I'm trying desperately not to get my hopes up and not fall in love with him. If this doesn't work out, moving on would be alot easier. But let's see how this man drama unrolls!
Secondly I have asked him out twice, both times he turned me down. I don't plan on asking him out for a third time. If he is interested, he would ask me. I am not asking him for the third time at least not anytime soon. It's not like he doesn't meet guys, he has met a couple of guys from what he told me.
All I can do now is hope and be as normal as possible. I'm trying desperately not to get my hopes up and not fall in love with him. If this doesn't work out, moving on would be alot easier. But let's see how this man drama unrolls!
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