By August 2006, it was time to say farewell to my A Levels crowd and institution. I had the most amazing time I could have asked for. While they were good moments and bad, I would not change a thing except the lie. Obviously everybody was now starting university, there were just two guys opting for medicine from our entire biology class of 13. This guy later created alot of drama in my life that involved Gracie, looking back at him right now I never expected it from him. But all that comes much much later!
It's 2011 right now and since our graduation, Alex and I have met about 13 times. Our meetings would turn 14 as we are planning another meet up sometime really soon. Since the gang has split off to various universities - some even different cities and countries - we manage to get together whenever we can. One outing we can always expect is during Ramadan. At almost all of our meets, if Alex gets a chance to get me alone he does ask me if anything new has happened with me regarding my sexuality. Except for this one time, my answer has been 'No'.
Everytime I tell him that there's nothing happening, he suggests that it's time that I give girls a try. Once he said, "They're not as bad as you think, you know!". My response to him was the 'You-Gotta-Be-Kidding-Me' look. Obviously I don't hate girls. It's stupid. They're so much fun to be with. Also sometimes Alex naivety about gays is hilarious.
The one time we did meet and I replied with a 'Yes', he was quite shocked. I was with Nathan at that time. He sat very silent for quite a long time, not talking to me. "So are you happy?", he asked me much later.
"Happy?", I ask him. "Kya matlab? (Translation; What do you mean?) ". Yeah, I occasionally dabble in Urdu.
"Are you happy with him?" Alex repeated in a quick whisper as if we were spies in enemy territory on some secret mission.
"I am! I am very happy! I will not go into details because you might vomit, but he's an amazing person and I really could not ask for anything more!" I told him. I remember having the biggest smile on my face.
"No difficulties?", he asked.
"Obviously not!", I reply. "There are. But which couples doesn't have disagreements. I know there are somethings we don't agree on, but that's okay. We understand. We argue. We love!" Crap, I'm such a drama-queen.
I had forgotten this line, but Alex later messaged me that if he ever has a fight with his wife he's going to use this on her. I wished him best. This happened in August 2010. Infact this was our latest meet!
Alex, even though never fully understood my situation, offered me support with his best intentions. I really couldn't have done it any better had I been in his shoes and my best friend came out to me.
It's 2011 right now and since our graduation, Alex and I have met about 13 times. Our meetings would turn 14 as we are planning another meet up sometime really soon. Since the gang has split off to various universities - some even different cities and countries - we manage to get together whenever we can. One outing we can always expect is during Ramadan. At almost all of our meets, if Alex gets a chance to get me alone he does ask me if anything new has happened with me regarding my sexuality. Except for this one time, my answer has been 'No'.
Everytime I tell him that there's nothing happening, he suggests that it's time that I give girls a try. Once he said, "They're not as bad as you think, you know!". My response to him was the 'You-Gotta-Be-Kidding-Me' look. Obviously I don't hate girls. It's stupid. They're so much fun to be with. Also sometimes Alex naivety about gays is hilarious.
The one time we did meet and I replied with a 'Yes', he was quite shocked. I was with Nathan at that time. He sat very silent for quite a long time, not talking to me. "So are you happy?", he asked me much later.
"Happy?", I ask him. "Kya matlab? (Translation; What do you mean?) ". Yeah, I occasionally dabble in Urdu.
"Are you happy with him?" Alex repeated in a quick whisper as if we were spies in enemy territory on some secret mission.
"I am! I am very happy! I will not go into details because you might vomit, but he's an amazing person and I really could not ask for anything more!" I told him. I remember having the biggest smile on my face.
"No difficulties?", he asked.
"Obviously not!", I reply. "There are. But which couples doesn't have disagreements. I know there are somethings we don't agree on, but that's okay. We understand. We argue. We love!" Crap, I'm such a drama-queen.
I had forgotten this line, but Alex later messaged me that if he ever has a fight with his wife he's going to use this on her. I wished him best. This happened in August 2010. Infact this was our latest meet!
Alex, even though never fully understood my situation, offered me support with his best intentions. I really couldn't have done it any better had I been in his shoes and my best friend came out to me.
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